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Hi Bogeyi and Paula :o)


Hope your boys are well today, and all well with you and the rest of your families too :o) Still thinking of you heaps xoxoxoxoxo

soniat-d (153 )    1:49 pm, 3 Aug




Any new of Ryan today so far??? I've been


thinking of you and sending just quiet, but positive vibes your way young man.....

joystik (285 )    1:50 pm, 3 Aug




That is intersting Joystik!


Funny thing is my sensitive parts are on my left side, not my right! I had pre-decay evident before chemo along my gumlines, and was given fancy pastes to soak the teeth in (I have teeth moulds) and muth rinses etc etc and used them about a dozens times through the whole chemo period (supposed to be like every second day LOL). So its my own fault! I just felt so lousy I didn't feel at all like having that tooth paste swilling around in my mouth, was worried it would make me throw up! Will be paying the price on Tuesday!

soniat-d (153 )    1:53 pm, 3 Aug




What you up to Paula??? Bogged in to heaps


of boring old school work with Josh I suppose....nah just joking. I know you are a busy wee thing over there on the farm. Any babies yet??

joystik (285 )    1:53 pm, 3 Aug




Oh to answer your hair loss question Joystik


Lucky you! No I lost pretty much all of mine everywhere! Armpits still hair free (yay!) rest is back except maybe eyelashes, the new lashes (I lost them all) are still too short to do much with, so eyeliner is still my best friend ;o) Eyebrows coming back well. I was totally bald on head by third chemo I'm pretty sure. But then I did do that parcel tape thing LOL

soniat-d (153 )    1:57 pm, 3 Aug




And its so expensive. I had part of an amalgam


filling fall out in my diner a couple of weeks ago so went in to have it fixed last week. He repaired it with white composite stuff, and it looks and feels great. I was in the chair a total of 10 minutes probably, and he didnt check anything else, and cost $140.00 Good hourly rate aye. You teeth look lovely in your pics. Mine are awful, quite close together so I have that decay round the edges, which has been filled and replaced many times. I will have to do something more permanent some time I guess....

joystik (285 )    1:57 pm, 3 Aug




OK sorry everyone I've missed


HAVE to go do stuff, gotta collect Lydia in 40 mins... bye for now :o)

soniat-d (153 )    1:58 pm, 3 Aug




I had to cut about 2 inches off my hair all over


couple of days ago, and its still probably about 1 - 2 inches long, whats left of it. I probably have a 20% coverage, and its growing still, because I notices it was longer than the wig at the back, hence the hair cut! Underarms need wax or roundup! Legs need shaving but I have just kept waiting for it to go voluntarily! And No Brazilian for me ladies.....well not yet!! Right, I'm off for a bike ride.....see you again soon...

joystik (285 )    2:01 pm, 3 Aug




Yeah I had Dentists dream teeth for years


(they used to go WOW when I opened my mouth and asked what I did to keep them so good LOL) Then one day... think it was around the time I got pregnant actually, teeth started breaking down a bit, got a few fillings (the expensive white kind) and then just before chemo - yikes! Yep my teeth look pretty good, but a few off them are really rough and porous now down the sides, feel terrible... I'm doing the paste thing every day now, but think its too late!

soniat-d (153 )    2:01 pm, 3 Aug




Whadya know Joystick


The lump is small again - enough to drive me mad! (I feel them way too many times a day now - bad habit! OK see you all later xoxoxo

soniat-d (153 )    2:03 pm, 3 Aug




How strong a dose of chemo are you having


Joystik? Any possibility of increasing it, given you're tolerating it so well? Hey, everyone is so different, my hair fell out with the AC, grew back with the Taxotere.... I met women who had the exact opposite! So I wouldn't worry - just enjoy! (The head hair I mean LOL) I actually miss my brizilian, that was fun :o)

soniat-d (153 )    2:06 pm, 3 Aug




Hi everyone


Joshi did some school work this morning but I didnt push it he looks terrible. I put a photo on his website, I think its tiredness a lot of it. Josh is having a bit of trouble withhis teeth - will have to get him seen to soon I think. Just bought the girls back to our farm now so its count down till the bubbas start coming. Then I will be awol from here. We keep crossing things off like thats the last time well be doing that. 10 months will fly. Actually going to look at a property in Wyndham tomorrow. Sonia you are good about getting your body sorted. Teeth, Back , Eyes - thats great. How many sleeps till you head away???

paulaxx (78 )    2:58 pm, 3 Aug




Hi Joystik


Bit of a gloomy day - enjoy your bike ride. HUh you could of ridden faster if you'd had a brazilian... ;o)

paulaxx (78 )    2:59 pm, 3 Aug






Hope you are all having a restful day after yesterday - thinking of you heaps xoxo

paulaxx (78 )    3:00 pm, 3 Aug




pppaaauuulllaaa hhheeelllooooooooooooo


i am here, we are good ryans good hes telling me he wants a trumpet ice cream so looks like i will be going for a walk.

bogeyi (484 )    3:21 pm, 3 Aug




Hey Bogeyi


That's great that he feels like icecream :o)

soniat-d (153 )    3:48 pm, 3 Aug




Hi bogeyi


Yummm - thats good news, hope your legs arent too achey tonight. Give Ryan our love, Josh has been asking me about him all day. Love to you all

paulaxx (78 )    4:01 pm, 3 Aug




Sonia, I am having the maximum dose of FEC


that I can have for my weight and height. I'm sure its the supplements that have knocked the side effects back so hard.

joystik (285 )    4:06 pm, 3 Aug




Glad the lump is small today. Do you think you


are feeling it in different positions, therefore making it feel bigger sometimes and smaller other times?? I only hope one day you go to feel it and it has gone completely. I cant feel anything at all along my scar lines. The cancer side is much more raised than the other side, but I wonder if thats to do with the Lymph nodes being removed?

joystik (285 )    4:10 pm, 3 Aug




Bogeyi, Ryan mist be feeling ok then to be asking


for Ice cream. I got so sick of ice cream in the hospital. Dont think I'm really an ice cream sort of a gal! But, just love their jelly. When I was on free fluids, I got 3 different colours of jelly for one meal....almost like christmas. Their jelly has such a lovely strong flavour. I'm so pleased for you that things are going ok. Been thinking of you lots Bogeyi.....

joystik (285 )    4:13 pm, 3 Aug






I am glad the lumps are smaller again today too. I just have to share this with you - Josh and I were just checking out his website and I showed him that 891 visitors had been to it an I said oooohhhh look nearly 900 hun, he said OOOHHHH ANOTHER HUNDY!!! I just thought it was so cute. Made me think of you. xoxoxoxo

paulaxx (78 )    4:15 pm, 3 Aug




Gee Paula, 10 months is no time is it? Hope


you enjoy looking at your farm in Wyndham tomorrow, and hopefully it will be a nice sunny day too. How big is it?? Got a nice Home on it too?? Will be looking forward to hearing all about it after you have been. I have been keeping my ear to the ground out here for you too but nothing really concrete at the moment. Dont make that poor boy do too much homework will you. Tell you what, send it to me and I will do it and send it back to the school. ha ha ha.....

joystik (285 )    4:17 pm, 3 Aug






No I dont push him. I only get him to do a bit when he is feeling up to it. Today he wanted to do a wee bit but tomorrow he wont do any. School have only sent home some cool sheets they are working on to make Josh feel included which is wonderful. We do it together anyway. So not a strain on him. Looking forward to seeing the farm tomorrow, 100 acres I think??? Tell u more when I can xo

paulaxx (78 )    5:29 pm, 3 Aug




bumping cause i feel like



bogeyi (484 )    5:40 pm, 3 Aug




bumping this thread


for you all too

cheekyone (8 )    7:10 pm, 3 Aug




Everyone is getting there dinner..........


.....or watching Coro.......

joystik (285 )    7:33 pm, 3 Aug




Ad break Joystik!


Evening everyone.Hope you have all had a good day.

maewest (79 )    7:59 pm, 3 Aug




Then the phone rang and I missed the action.......


but just saw Nathan get his 'just desserts' ha ha ha......

joystik (285 )    8:12 pm, 3 Aug




You have a nice time with your new friends....


Maewest? Obviously your work didn't intercept your day off again!!

joystik (285 )    8:13 pm, 3 Aug




Golly! Its quiet tonight!


Just got back from Lydia's parent-teacher interview. She's doing very well, ahead of her age skill-wise, well behaved, super polite etc. She is over-sensitive and unsure friends-wise, lacks confidence. All things we knew... she's just sensitive to whats going on with me and its affecting her. Will work on inviting her friends around to play again, see if that helps. Should do ;o) OK gotta go put her to bed, have a good evening all :o)

soniat-d (153 )    8:19 pm, 3 Aug




I had a lovely afternoon


thanks. It's strange, we have all only known each other for a few months yet it feels like a lifetime. It's great. Bit like on here really. Hehe no call from work today thank goodness. Back there at 7am tomorrow!

maewest (79 )    8:24 pm, 3 Aug




Sonia, I knew she woud be really good..........


but you can tell by things you say about her that she has a sensitive nature. She's beautiful Sonia and so is Emily......You must be very proud.

joystik (285 )    8:24 pm, 3 Aug




Sonia you will be so proud


of Lydia. She sounds a beautiful little girl. She will have all sorts of things going through her little head. And you are a wonderful Mum. (((HUGS)))

maewest (79 )    8:25 pm, 3 Aug




I sure am Joystik :o)


Considering all they have witnessed me go through, and the things other adults say in front of them (like "OH no you have cancer, my .... died of that" (?!?!) I think they're doing admirably for such wee souls :o)

soniat-d (153 )    8:27 pm, 3 Aug




Maewest, is that a 12 hour shift?? They are quite


long days aren't they. Your friends sound like all you guys that I have met on here and talk to everyday. I feel like I have known you all for's great

joystik (285 )    8:27 pm, 3 Aug




And Sonia, they hear more and take on much more


than you ever realise too. And then it comes out in really odd ways sometimes, like they wil do something really strange that they wouldn't normally do, and react like a stessed out little person....They will have seen you go through so much in a year or more and will hear things and be being dropped off with other people while you attend appointments etc. It effects the whole family in quite a big way doesn't it....

joystik (285 )    8:31 pm, 3 Aug




Sonia people can be so


insensitive. Have you really had people say that in front on the girls? That's terrible. The poor wee souls. It has been hard enough for my grown up boys. I can't imagine how it must be for your little ones. You will be a new person ater all your 'bits' have been fixed's almost like a makeover!

maewest (79 )    8:34 pm, 3 Aug






I know its been said before but you must be very proud. Dear little poppit. Give her and Emily a cuddle from us here. Hugs to you (((((HUGS)))))

paulaxx (78 )    8:35 pm, 3 Aug




Joystik, just


7 hours the next 2 mornings, then 12 hours on Sunday and 8 on Monday night....that's enough!!!! Yes these 2 girls (ladies!) are really neat and so much fun. We chat about anything and everything! Wouldn't it be great if we could all have a get together somewhere?? Who knows!

maewest (79 )    8:37 pm, 3 Aug




Hi Paula


Hope all is well in your world. How is Josh tonight? Has the chemo and steroids affected him yet? And how are YOU?

maewest (79 )    8:39 pm, 3 Aug




Hi Maewest


I am feeling sooooo much better thank you! Josh looked so awful today, pale and so heavy under his eyes I hate seeing him like that. He is feeling the effects already of all of it. I had to get him to eat up so I could give him his chemo two hours after dinner, then for once he just went out like a light. Sound asleep. They both are tonight. Dear little things. I am so blessed. His x-box is playing up now. Of course to him thats a huge thing. Its his world. Hope I can get someone local to look at it???

paulaxx (78 )    8:50 pm, 3 Aug




The hours you work


Maewest - I am so glad the people are fun to work with. Yeah a get together - Maui's nice lol

paulaxx (78 )    8:56 pm, 3 Aug




Sounds good to me


Paula. I saw Josh's pic on his website. He does look miserable. It must be so hard for you. You are doing such a wonderful job. I'm so pleased you are feeling better. Boy it has taken a while. Onward and upward ((((HUGS))))

maewest (79 )    8:58 pm, 3 Aug






Is Joshs' xbox still under warranty? we had a problem with ours and they just replaced it as they told us they just replace them.

janetmk1 (39 )    9:21 pm, 3 Aug




I saw it too Paula and he did look kinda sad to me


I told him in his guestbook that it was on account of the school work.....Poor kid has a bit to go through doesnt he. Give him a hug....but dont wake him up will you

joystik (285 )    9:21 pm, 3 Aug




Actually Lauren got a new one soon after we got it


something to do with a faulty cord, that could catch on fire!!

joystik (285 )    9:24 pm, 3 Aug




hi sonia, haven't read much lately


but could the pain and lumpiness be scar tissue from your surgery?

mimi1 (226 )    9:24 pm, 3 Aug




Hey Boop's sending mail so she cant be far away...


wonder where shes been? Come on Boop, where have you been????

joystik (285 )    9:31 pm, 3 Aug




I'm off to bed now


This is early for me. I'll probably be back up in an hour!! Have a lovely evening everyone and an equally lovely day tomorrow. Love and ((HUGS)) to the littlies. Still no word from Boop. Wonder if her computer is playing up. Talk to you all tomorrow night.Nite nite XXX

maewest (79 )    9:32 pm, 3 Aug




Paula that email you sent is just beautiful??


I will send it on to specialpeople in my address book too. Maewest, I dont have an email address for you. I could keep you amused for hours....probably days. Who is gunna get the fifty???

joystik (285 )    9:33 pm, 3 Aug




Nite nite Maewest, see you again sometime soon,


after all you work. Hope you have a good day tomorrow and its a sunny one for you. Take care ....((((HUGS)))))

joystik (285 )    9:34 pm, 3 Aug




Paula, sorry I forgot


to thank for the email too. It must be the same one Joystik. Joystik, you will probably find my email addy on Josh or Ryans's website. I'm a bit slow too, yours will be on there as well!!

maewest (79 )    9:35 pm, 3 Aug




Hi Joystik :)


Still plodding along here Danny went to his dr on Tuesday and his meds have been increased. According to the doctor he has plateaued. I guess it just takes a lot of time and patience. Jordan is due to have another bout of vertigo soon so its going to be a long month. But while I have the chance I am going shopping tomorrow and the hairdressers etc so I can have a bit of "ME" time :)) I hope you hear about your job soon, must feel like its taking forever to you? It sure feels like a long time to me, every day I come on to see if you have heard :)

janetmk1 (39 )    9:36 pm, 3 Aug




Nanite Maewest


Thanks for all your loving supportive words. We are going to meet one day. I know it. Take care xoxo

paulaxx (78 )    9:37 pm, 3 Aug




Hi Maewest,


I bet you can't wait till you have a few days off, you sure work a lotta hours.

janetmk1 (39 )    9:40 pm, 3 Aug






It was cool wasnt it, the email that is... Josh was really not taht sad today - he was pulling such crazy faces when I took that photo it was inbetween some hilarity and well you know what we are like. Sorry if it made people sad. I just took it cos too me its another marker - the da after, the start of it all again. But one day closer to it all being successful. xoxo

paulaxx (78 )    9:40 pm, 3 Aug




Yes Paula, I know you guys as funny,happy people


but I suppose he just gets sick of himself some days and wishes he was someone else just for w while so he didnt have to put up with all this STUFF!!

joystik (285 )    9:48 pm, 3 Aug




Hi Janet, I think it will be after the weekend now


so check again then. I had to r-do part of the profile so they could do a proper analysis of my character and suitability for the position. How you dont have too uch to put up with, but I guess you know whats in store and now you are getting prepared for wen it sets in. Take care and treat your self tomorrow....(((HUGS)))

joystik (285 )    9:51 pm, 3 Aug






Yea I bet he does too, just probably doesnt tell me about it, cos he wouldnt want to upset me...

paulaxx (78 )    9:58 pm, 3 Aug




Glad Bogey Ryan was asking for ice cream


and Paula you are feeling better. Hope these people don't keep you dangling too long Joystik waiting to hear about that job. Wet here today so did another movie. Tiredness has set in a bit in last couple of days and I have had aching joints & muscles quite bad again. Grr just getting impatient! Away for a port flush tomorrow. I have damaged 2 molars during chemo and was staying across the road from Dental School in Dunedin. One of the other people had been going over to the school for treatment while doing radiation so I went and enquired about it too. What a laugh. Got told depending on what year student could be 3-18 month wait! I actually had an appointment at dentist day I started radiation and had to cancel it but have another next week.

landylass (48 )    10:02 pm, 3 Aug




Hi Landylass


Sorry you are feeling so tired. What a crock with your molars and how ironic youhad to put off that appointment. Hope the aches and pains ease off for you xo

paulaxx (78 )    10:04 pm, 3 Aug




Joystick I had


3 cycles of FEC and my hair started to go about 10 days after 2nd one. My hubby was getting mad with me as it never all stopped growing and I used to run his shaver over the top every morning otherwise it annoyed me on the pillow at night. First place I lost it was under arms. Went all over except for the legs which only partially went and thats where I was hoping it would all go! As soon as they took me off FEC it all started to grow back. Sadly its coming in quite grey and straight but hey its better in this weather to at least have some cover now!

landylass (48 )    10:06 pm, 3 Aug




Photos of Josh - taken today


that are not so sad!! See what I mean. Oh the bath one was last night... Love to you all xoxoxoxoxo

paulaxx (78 )    10:06 pm, 3 Aug




Hi Paula


I'm with you on keeping Joshi away from school and the bugs. Especially if chicken pox is around. Can't be too careful. Hope you get that XBox going soon... he will have withdrawal symptoms. Will post a photo of Mr14 once he got the wireless controllers. Instead of sprawling on the floor he found a new perch on his sisters music stool and could sit like this for hours!

landylass (48 )    10:09 pm, 3 Aug




Here is photo of


how he plays XBox!

landylass (48 )    10:13 pm, 3 Aug




Hi Landylass


MMMM - the x-box. Janet asked me before and I hadnt replied, the x-box wasnt new when we go it. Am now wondering just how old it was!!!! Might need to suss that out if I can first, bought it off a friend of a friend bla bla. Oh and no im not hurrying him back to school.

paulaxx (78 )    10:13 pm, 3 Aug




HA HA Landylass


that is classic lol

paulaxx (78 )    10:14 pm, 3 Aug




His older brother has sold his


house and has a heap of his stuff in storeage so has loaned Mr14 his big TV so now he thinks its cool, he can lie in his top bunk and play in bed! Didn't figure on mum pinching the little piece that plugs into the Xbox so I still have some control on how long he spends on it and when!

landylass (48 )    10:16 pm, 3 Aug






I bet he does! Thats cool though. Right Im off to try and get some sleep. Take care and hope you feel better soon. Love and hugs from us all. (We missed you when you were away) ;o)

paulaxx (78 )    10:19 pm, 3 Aug




crikey away for a bit and i have heaps to


catch up on, have put some pics of the transplant on his site, can someone view them for me to make sure they can be seen.

bogeyi (484 )    10:27 pm, 3 Aug




Righto ladies, I'm off to bed now. See you all


tomorrow after a good nights rest and sleep. Hi Bogeyi and Ryan....hope all is continuing to go to plan for you guys. Special love and hugs to you 2. ((((HUGS ))))) to every one else....sweet dreams....

joystik (285 )    10:33 pm, 3 Aug




Hi bogey


so pleased Ryan is doing well I would buy him a dozen icecreams if I was there. Tyler is a brave wee soul too. Hugs to you all.

boop2 (109 )    10:41 pm, 3 Aug




Hi paula and joshi


I hope you are picking up again. Paula I think your two are very much alike aren't they? Sounds like you are going to be very busy calving, take care and love from me.

boop2 (109 )    10:44 pm, 3 Aug




Hi janet


I do hope Danny comes right I think mental health is so hard too deal with, my thoughts are with you and your boys. hugs

boop2 (109 )    10:45 pm, 3 Aug




Hi sonia


gosh you have been through the mill lately lets hope this holiday will relax you a bit. it is so hard on those wee girls cause they don't fully understand what is happening. Take care and keep on keeping on. Hugs

boop2 (109 )    10:48 pm, 3 Aug




Hi nova


I see you have been on once please come back and join us. I was wondering how you were doing. I wouldn't worry too much you will always be his only mum and haven't you proved that? He is so lucky he has such a great dad. How is that other gorgeous wee man? Hugs

boop2 (109 )    10:51 pm, 3 Aug




Hi meridian, dize, icarus and corvette


hope you are doing okay just about asleep on here. Take care

boop2 (109 )    10:53 pm, 3 Aug




Hi farmerlloyd


How's it going are you worn out chasing those sheep? I did think about you when going through Culverden and seeing all the little lambs playing there were heaps and guess what at Reefton on the way home outside a shop was a box of SWEDES for 60cents each. I pounced on them. The paddocks in Reefton are so green I don't think you would see them as green anywhere else, mostly dairy farms there I think. Take care farmer lloyd.

boop2 (109 )    10:58 pm, 3 Aug




Hello, hello joystick and maewest


thankyou for missing me.Glad too hear you are doing so well. I went to CHCH on the spur of the moment I was brousing through trademe and saw all these pavers for sale( over 600) I said too Malc I have to get them cause I have such plans for the back garden well anyway I bid on them and won the auction. They had to be uplifted by Friday so we hopped in the ute and over we went.Well what an experience after we finished loading them we were driving down the motorway and him next to me said the trailer looks at an odd angle so we pulled up and

boop2 (109 )    11:08 pm, 3 Aug




Great to see you back Boop...


everyone was missing you today! I'm off to bed to if I can get my 2 kids to go. Been up late tonight with homework.

landylass (48 )    11:09 pm, 3 Aug




woops off to bed after get the


rest of boops story. This sounds interesting!

landylass (48 )    11:10 pm, 3 Aug




sure enough all the welds at the bottom of the


trailer had broke so we had to crawl along the road and we came across this welding place on the Mainsouth road and Watts road(maewest you would know how busy it is there) anyway those lovely guys came out and unloaded the bricks , fixed our trailer while we sat in there cafe drinking their coffee they then loaded all the bricks on again. I went too help and they told me to bugga off. They were fabulous I can't speak highly enough of them.

boop2 (109 )    11:14 pm, 3 Aug




boop there have been a few


sore backs in this thread lately. Don't you go going them now unloading or working with those pavers!!!! Be positive that it happened where it did. Would have been the pits in the middle of the alps somewhere! You escaped Murphys law.

landylass (48 )    11:16 pm, 3 Aug




I was so upset thinking we might drop our bricks


in the middle of the motor way I just had to go and spend some money at the warehouse which is a novelty to me. Now you two eat your heart out they had bush roses reduced to 4.99 so I got 4 of those.One is justjoey, maryrose, forget the others will look in the morning.

boop2 (109 )    11:21 pm, 3 Aug




Cancer SUCKS.


Lost my friend just this monday gone. rest in peace Christopher James Stockdale Cowan 27/09/78 - 31/07/06 - I will light a candle for you every night untill your ashes return home.

lostcorz (135 )    11:22 pm, 3 Aug




Hi landylass


you are so right I said that too Malc imagine if we had been on the Rahu saddle or something it might have cost 100.00 but well worth it.I looked at your photo what a hard case position he is in. I had a playstation and I loved it one of the first things I sold when I joined trademe! Glad your family are all over their bugs now. Take care landylass

boop2 (109 )    11:27 pm, 3 Aug




Hi again joystick


I will never be too busy to come on here, like you everyone seems like old friends and I have to find out how they are doing.Our season doesn't start till 1st Sept and finishes on 14th NOv. it is one month shorter over here because they felt it was getting fished out. I am so pleased Sheri is coming I have to answer her mail yet. I read where sheep pellets are the best thing out for roses. Do you think farmerlloyd might bundle me up some? well off to bed will catch you tomorrow.

boop2 (109 )    11:32 pm, 3 Aug






I know how you feel having lost my life long friend to bowel cancer and two other very dear friends. You are so right cancer sucx

boop2 (109 )    11:36 pm, 3 Aug




Yeah cancer Suxs big time


I lost both My Mum and Dad 18 months apart to cancer,My mum had breast cancer and lost her first breast 30 yrs ago then 5 yrs ago lost the other one not long after that she passed away,Totally corageous lady,My Dad had Lymphatic leukemia for 25 yrs he was in and out of remission for a lot of that time. I am truly grateful for all the years I had with them after they were diagnosed (all those years ago),It Gave me time to prepare It still wasn't easy but I am still thankfull.. I send my love and kindest thoughts to all .

fancylegz (786 )    11:40 pm, 3 Aug




so sad fancylegz


I knew I had spelt it wrong after all the times I have read it no excuse really. CANCER SUXS

boop2 (109 )    11:48 pm, 3 Aug




Good morning everyone


Welcome back Boop. I missed ya. I can just vision you crawling along in THAT traffic with a broken trailer! Oh boy! Good service you got though. Wow, cheap roses....Wah Wah!!! I want some more! Sorry gotta fly.Just wanted to be first on here this morning...beat that Joystik! Have a lovely day everyone. XXX

maewest (79 )    6:15 am, 4 Aug




Good morning everyone


Looks as if Maewest was the early bird this morning.(What a worker you are!) And nice to see you again Boop. I can surely send you 1 or 2 of the product you require.. But I think you may be after a wheelbarrow load or two ???

farmerlloyd (24 )    7:29 am, 4 Aug




Hi neighbour Paula


We are in for a lovely sunny day today eh? Just perfect for wandering around the farmland around Wyndham! I hope you are kicking those bugs and that Josh has a better day today. It is a long sprawling treatment regime he has to endure isn't it. Anyway you can't help but feel a lot better when the day turns out to be a good one weather wise 1

farmerlloyd (24 )    7:35 am, 4 Aug




I cannot type quickly enough


to mention all the individual names here and it is time I was out amongst the stock... so will toddle off now Hi Bogeyi , thinking all all you guys . Joystik, Meridian, Sonia, Janet. Everyone else I haven't mentioned Good morning and you must know that Southland is about to have a great sunny spring day .. I must be off !

farmerlloyd (24 )    7:41 am, 4 Aug




morning all


it is so foggy here today i cant see anything out my window. Looks like Ryan is getting mucusitis hes not very happy today.

bogeyi (484 )    9:09 am, 4 Aug




Morning all


Lovely day here. Busy busy. Bogeyi Those photos are incredible. WOW! When you see them it makes you appreciate even more just what you are going through. You have two very brave boys. Sending hugs to you all xo

paulaxx (78 )    9:10 am, 4 Aug




Morning all, Bit of a late start for me again,but


I have been busy this morning doing stuff. Such a beautiful day here in sunny Southland, that I will be outside most of today and not on here. Going for a ride out country later on to, and having coffee with another friend shortly. Ohhhh what a busy life....Hi Paula and Josh, hope you love the farm you are going to look at. It will look great on such a nice day. Frmerlloyd, there wont be much sign of you here either on a day like this. Nice to see you Bogeyi, and I hope that Ryan doesn't have to suffer to much nasty stuff with this transplant. Thinking about you all lots....((((HUGS))))

joystik (285 )    10:24 am, 4 Aug




Hi Boop, so pleased to see you are back. I


was beginning to think maybe you had gone to see the Grandkids or something. The trailer thing was a bit of a hassle, but isn't it just grand to know that there are still nice blokey blokes out there that would take over and do it all for you like that. It restores ones faith in humans. You are into roses now aren't you?? Once you start buying them you can always find a place for just 1 more. My success rate with Warehouse roses was, sad to say, very poor. Probably less that half actually grew at all and the others were very slow. Of course they are a real bargain if they do though. Good luck with them. Yes, that pelletised sheep manure at the warehouse is very good if you cant get the real stuff. Easier to handle too. I am going to feed mine more organically this year and leave the phosphates in the shop!! I have always been big on spreading Nitrophoska everywhere, including the lawn so as to have the greenest lawn in town!!

joystik (285 )    10:29 am, 4 Aug




Hi Landylass, thanks for all your info on the hair


thing. Yes it seems that everyone reacts slightly differently to these drugs. It would seem that I am quite tolerent to them especially given the size of the doseage, and the fact that the side effects are very minimal. I guess in that light, I will have to shave the legs and armpits after all, and just imagine what a Braviallian would have been like!! Although I guess with 3 treatments still to go, there is time for changes still. Hope you have got a beautiful day like we have here truely is stunning!!

joystik (285 )    10:32 am, 4 Aug




Hi Sonia, where are you to collect yet another....


HUNDY!!! You have appointments today I think anyway....Take Care out there .....

joystik (285 )    10:34 am, 4 Aug




Hi and welcome to lostcorz and fancylegz.......


thanks to you both for posting and telling you story. I'm very sorry for you loss. Unfortunately that seems to be wht happens for some people. My Mum also had breast cancer twice, first at 29 and then again at 39and then died at 48. I still miss her today and think about how things would have been for her now had she survived all that. Its 22 years since she died now, and of course medical treatments have improved a lot in that time also. But still some will survive this terrible disease and some wont. I am on the WILL list, with all the other poeple on this thread. We all have our swords held high and Fight, Fight, Fight!! Take care both of you....(((HUGS))))

joystik (285 )    10:39 am, 4 Aug




Hi Maewest, you will be half way through a days


work while I'm sitting in here doing this. Hope its sunny where you are, just makes the day go so much quicker and better. Got you email addy too...thanks. Have a great day....

joystik (285 )    10:41 am, 4 Aug




Hows sunny Hamilton today Dize?? Hope you


are having an awesome day too. It certainly is yoo good to be inside today. Thinking of you and sending sunshine just in case you dont have any.... and to you also Janet. Hope all is well with you and the boys today. Hows things with you Meridian?? Everything OK?? Hope you are busy enjoying yourself....((((HUGS)))) to you all....and see everyone later on in the day....

joystik (285 )    10:43 am, 4 Aug




Hi Joystik


We are about to leave to pick up Cass then meet the Real Estate Agent. First calf just being born as I type this. Thats it now the others will look at it and think I quite like that and hormones will start racing - before you know it wel be in the thick of it. Anyway beautiful day. Hope you and your family have a great one. p.s Off to buy Josh an xbox 360, after chatting to experts it seems the laser is gone on his old one. He is so excited cant keep him quiet. xo

paulaxx (78 )    11:27 am, 4 Aug




Everybody all


together now say OOOOOOOOHHHHHHHH

paulaxx (78 )    11:47 am, 4 Aug




Oh Paula, the new baby is beautiful..........


It just looks like a lovely Jersey Mum too, is it?? I'm not telling Lauren that Josh is getting a New Xbox 360!! She wants one so badly that its not funny. Enjoy your look around Wyndham wont you.....

joystik (285 )    12:17 pm, 4 Aug






I would like to be able to tell you that Hamilton is bathed in sunshine, but I would be lying. We had a heavy fog earlier, then it lifted, but seems to be coming down again. On the news it said that Auckland, Hamilton and Chch airports were closed with fog. 5 jumbo jets had to be re-routed from landing in Auckland, 3 went to Wgtn and 2 to Fiji. That would be a bummer to fly all the way from England or America and find yourself in Fiji, and you might get as far as the arrivals lounge, or you might sit on the plane for hours. They don't like all the paperwork if you land for a short time. Very disrupting. A little glimmer of sunshine is appearing, so that will cheer our two spoilt cats (Fred and Monty). Have a good day all of you.

dize5 (490 )    12:22 pm, 4 Aug




Hi all, sorry its just one thing after another


here at the mo! Had my vit C infusion this morning, running late... good news with my back, was able to sleep on my side last night, for the first time in a week! So definately improving!

soniat-d (153 )    12:55 pm, 4 Aug




Hi mimi1


Thanks for asking, no I definately still have about 12 lumps in there, the docs are hoping they've died and gone necrotic, so are happy as long as they don't start growing again. My radiologist said the effects of radiation would continue for months, and that the lumps swell and shrink through that process, so I have to assume thats what is happening, for now. Last night I freaked a bit, they all seemed big whole area was lumpy, felt awful, so I was crying etc. Then this morning, sweet as. Its freaky alright, hate it :o/!!!

soniat-d (153 )    12:58 pm, 4 Aug




Awww Paula :o)


Cute new bubba ;o) Wow spring is here eh? The fog has only just lifted here, was a major today, I'd imagine a lot of flights were postponed/diverted etc. Hey cute Josh calling his hits hundies LOL What a pro! ;o) Hope he's OK today, have still gotta backtrack through all the posts see the other photos etc...

soniat-d (153 )    1:01 pm, 4 Aug




But for now I have to go put Em


to bed...

soniat-d (153 )    1:01 pm, 4 Aug




Hi All!


The sun is shining here in sunny Hawke's Bay, and we have been playing outside all morning. I love the sunny weather!!!! I am great, and hoping to go away (only to palmy) next weekend without the kids. It'll seem so strange with no kids at all. I have 6 here when my 2 finish their school day - 7mnth old, 20month old, 2year old, nearly 4year old and mine are nearly 6 and nearly 10. Man I love kids!

meridian1 (300 )    1:07 pm, 4 Aug




he he


especially when they have daytime naps and I can catch up on here ;-)

meridian1 (300 )    1:10 pm, 4 Aug




I want to try linking a picture - neva done it b4 Our darling dog, Elle, we lost last week. Seems strange without her, but the pain is softening. Wasn't she beautiful!!! Love to you all going through your various treatments! Joystick - you are amazing - I bet your docs tell you that frequently. Sonia - glad you are havn a good day with the lumps. Im sorry you were so upset last night, you poor doll :-( . Bogeyi - hope today is going well for Ryan. How long before you know whether Ryan is accepting Tyler's marrow? Praying that it all goes as smoothly as possible!!! Paula - hi! Love your new baby!!!! I hope Joshi and Cassie are a box of birds today - wow - xbox 360 - lucky Joshi!! Hi Farmerlloyd, Maewest, Janet, Boop, Landylass, Dize etc etc etc - hope you are all having a glorious day!!!!

meridian1 (300 )    1:31 pm, 4 Aug




Its a beaut day here now :o)


Will have to pop down and check the track - may be able to walk to school again finally to collect Lydia, been a damp few weeks lately...

soniat-d (153 )    1:47 pm, 4 Aug




Hi Bogeyi ;o)


Just checked out your pics - wow! I like the "Bag of gold" - just amazing what science can do eh?! Hope your boys are having a good day :o)

soniat-d (153 )    1:50 pm, 4 Aug




Made a typo early ...


my nearly 10yr old is actually nearly 11. Boy they certainly grow up quickly! Most of you are probably out enjoying the day, and I'm parked up here having my lunch (late I know) and surfing. Will be back outside when the boys wake no doubt!

meridian1 (300 )    1:50 pm, 4 Aug




Actually I haven't had my lunch yet!?!


Better go get me some ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    1:52 pm, 4 Aug




joystick I hope you are wrong about


the roses from the warehouse. The other two are erotica and new dawn a climber. I will give them all the love and attention they deserve. Glad you are well and still enjoying your walks. What a lovely wee calf, spring, s great.

boop2 (109 )    2:03 pm, 4 Aug




many thanks..


I have just discovered this thread, and it bought tears to my eyes. The love is amazing. It is just coming up to a year since I lost my best friend at the age of 33yrs and she left behind her 3 children and wonderful husband, as well as introducing me to her other dear friend. Our love for her is forever strong. I am going to share this with her hubby so he can also draw strength from you remarkable folk. THANK YOU

tinkerbellsmum (51 )    2:07 pm, 4 Aug






My mother has bought roses from the warehouse, and they are doing great - hopefully yours will to! I have just done a rough count up around our propery - at least 50 roses! They were all here when we moved here about a year and a half ago. My hubby and I knew nothing about roses (I still don't know alot), but he seems to have them sorted!

meridian1 (300 )    2:14 pm, 4 Aug




Hi Tinkerbellsmum....welcome and thanks for....


posting on this thread. So sorry about your friend, but unfortunately it still does happen. Roll on quickly the day when they can prevent it rather than try to cure it! This is a very supportive thread, and the people on here have become very special friends to me, although I have only ever met one of them in person. I feel like I have known them forever. Please tell your friend to post - we all support each other. ((((HUGS)))) to you....

joystik (285 )    2:16 pm, 4 Aug






I am so sorry to hear your story. ((((((((hugs))))))))

meridian1 (300 )    2:19 pm, 4 Aug




Hi Sonia and Dize....I heard that you were fogged


over up there this morning and the flights were being diverted all over the place. I see that happened last week or sometime and he planes landed at Whenuapai and the people wewre left sitting on the planes fo 10 hours!! That wouldn't impress you much would it! I see you are having a busy day again Sonia. Sorry you were distressed last night. We have times like that dont we. I woke up a bit like that this morning but think I was on the tail end of a dream, and couldn't even remember what it was about after a few minute, so came right quickly. But initially I did feel just horrid! I think about you, what you have gone through, and what you still have to go through, lots of times every day. Good thing you are such a positive lady and a delight to be around......((((HUGS))))and to you too Dize....

joystik (285 )    2:21 pm, 4 Aug




Hi Meridian, you dog is beautiful...a blue heeler?


Wonder why I thought it wa a golden Labrador?? I did get a big surprise when the pic came up on the screen. Its always sad when pets leave us. The become such a big part of the family.....I've told my cat lots of times that he has to live forever....cos he's got such a beautiful nature......and I love him to bits..

joystik (285 )    2:24 pm, 4 Aug




Yes joystick


she was a beautiful natured Blue Heeler. Such a loyal girl.

meridian1 (300 )    2:27 pm, 4 Aug




he he


now i know how to do it you might just be bombarded with piccys of my kids

meridian1 (300 )    2:29 pm, 4 Aug




hi all


just popping in to say gidday. beautiful sunny spring like day in the south. and there are a few lambs about i am getting excited. because we have a few sheep on our lifestyle block and they are in lamb. so we will have some soon too. i forgot to introduce myself in this thread. i am carer to my husband who has a brain tumor. he was diagnoised in 03 has had two craniotomies, radation and chemotherapy. all treatment finished now the beast is still there lurking in the back ground we are both 36 have 3 kids 13,10 and 5. we lived in aussie for a long time and made the decision to come home and he had is chemo here in the south. hubby had another seizure this week which are part of his tumor and distressing to watch. he also has a vision imparment and lost left visual field in both eyes so can no longer drive . well thats about all thinking of you all hope you having a nice day.

kiwikaz3 (10 )    2:57 pm, 4 Aug




lostcoz, fancylegz, tinkerbellsmum


sorry for yor loss. we lost a friend early this year to brain tumor. cancer sure does sux. made a promise to do relay for life next year so am determind to put in a team and raise funds for cancer society.

kiwikaz3 (10 )    3:00 pm, 4 Aug






how you going to day? have mr 13 home today we both have the bugs. i am off to get him some dvds to watch and hopefully he will relax!! (yeah right hes been on the mower feed the animals etc already today) loved the photo of mr14 yesterday hee hee. good news for josh getting a new xbox hope he gets it today paula.??xciting for him.!!! ok off this for now.

kiwikaz3 (10 )    3:04 pm, 4 Aug




hi kiwikaz3 nice to see you in here


paula did you get the xbox, I was telling ryan and his eyebrows raised and he said lucky, cool.

bogeyi (484 )    3:46 pm, 4 Aug




Wow lucky Josh!


Bet he's over the moon! Has he got it now Paula? Xbox is lost on me - know nothing about it! But you guys have taught me that boys LOVE them LOL

soniat-d (153 )    4:15 pm, 4 Aug




Hi Landylass


That was an outragious photo of Mr 14 playing Xbox LOL!

soniat-d (153 )    4:23 pm, 4 Aug




Hi everyone


I'm home again. Been for a is still lovely. Been a beaut day after the foggy start. Xbox Paula. How exciting is that?? Josh will be over the moon. Hi Sonia. Sorry to hear you had the 'blues'last night. I think we all have those occasionally. You have got to stop feeling those lumps so often!! Must be hard not to though. Just think of that radiation still doing it's work.

maewest (79 )    4:33 pm, 4 Aug




Bogey I hope


Ryan is feeling a bit better now.I suppose he will have ups and downs for a while. How is Tyler? Has he recovered from the transfusion? I think you said he has to watch our for bugs for a while. That's a big ask at this time of year!! Hope you are feeling okay also. Think about you heaps. Big ((((HUGS)))) XX

maewest (79 )    4:39 pm, 4 Aug




Lostcorz, Fancylegz, Tinkerbellsmum


So sorry to read your stories. My thoughts are with you all. It is not until you have the big C, or know someone with it that you realise just how prevalent it is. Please keep posting on here. It is a great support network. (((HUGS))) to you all.

maewest (79 )    4:42 pm, 4 Aug






Really sad to hear your story. You will get lots of loving support in here, so keep in touch. Sorry to hear you had a "down" night last night Sonia. You are only human, it is only natural to let the sword slip down briefly. Hope you are feeling better mentally today. Nice weekend coming up for us all, hopefully. I am just going around to have a wine with my youngest daughter and see my 3 grandchildren. They call me Nana Dize and I love it!!!

dize5 (490 )    4:44 pm, 4 Aug




Hey bettyboop


How's the coast today? I have New's lovely. Also have has a lovely perfume. I'm sure with some tender care those Red Shed roses will thrive. Yip the old sheep pellets are great. Must admit though I tend to use nitrophoska. It's great stuff. Still haven't finished pruning. It will happen sometime. I have a friend with an award winning garden and all she does is use the hedge clippers on her roses!

maewest (79 )    4:45 pm, 4 Aug




Dize, enjoy


your wine and your grandchildren. I am about to pour myself a glass of the red stuff. You have a lovely weekend.

maewest (79 )    4:47 pm, 4 Aug




HI Joystik


Thank for the emails. I will have to dig out some to send back to you. You busy girl. Hope you have had a lovely day. Janet, Hope your boys are okay today. That depression is tough. One step forward, two steps back a lot of the time. You just have to make the most of the good days.Landylass that photo of your son is a crackup! How can he sit like that for hours? It looks so uncomfortable! Hope your aches and pains are feeling better today. Farmerlloyd, hope you have had a lovely day chasing your sheep! You won't need bike rides etc like the rest of us! Lots of lambs around now. I love it.We have a paddock over our fence with polo horses. One of the locals breeds them and has a polo field over our back fence...Mark may have heard of him. His brother does the racehorse thing.

maewest (79 )    4:53 pm, 4 Aug




Hows the wine going maewest?


I'm off for a cycle now, will be back later ;o) Feeling great today thanks :o) just too much to do, having appointments every morning of the work week makes it tricky to get things done! xoxoxoxo to you all :o)

soniat-d (153 )    4:57 pm, 4 Aug




Yoo hoo!!!!


It's quiet on here tonight. On my second glass of the red stuff. Have to get to bed early tonight ready for another early start.

maewest (79 )    7:20 pm, 4 Aug




Hya Maewest :o)


Wish I could join you - I'm being a good (= boring) girl and avoiding the vino :o/!!!

soniat-d (153 )    7:29 pm, 4 Aug




Hey Sonia but


they (who??) say red wine is good for you!! I believe it. Made myself vege pasta for tea..on my own tonight. It's the man's tyurn to work! So had the 5+ veges and fruit in the wine!! lol

maewest (79 )    7:43 pm, 4 Aug






just had a couple of red wines my self 50/50 with cranberry juice very nice. kids made pizzas for tea . i chopped up all the ingredients this avo and they put them together:) easy friday nite tea. sonia hope your having a good nite. hubby up so i am off to get his tea.

kiwikaz3 (10 )    7:53 pm, 4 Aug




With all the drama and stress in you lives...


you deserve to have an wine or two..... Nothing like sitting down on a friday night with you partner and catching up and enjoying a wine or two.

zhapod (0 )    8:00 pm, 4 Aug




Very true zhapod


thanks for your approval! I haven't tried it with cranberry juice Kiwikaz. Dunno about that! Will try it sometime. How are things in your household?

maewest (79 )    8:11 pm, 4 Aug




Alcohol in general not good


but what the hey ;o) I don't like red wine but LOVE white :o) Don't drink that anymore, have the odd weak Kahlua to raise my spirits (pun intended LOL). Will be having one tonight ;o) OK gotta put the girls to bed, brents still not back. He's around at the other house getting a quote for HRV system installation. Appointment was 7.30 - they must be doing the full sell LOL

soniat-d (153 )    8:12 pm, 4 Aug




Everything in moderation


that's my motto now Sonia. Actually I have not long got the taste for alcohol back. Even now, red wine is about the only thing that appeals. In says you can have red wine in my chemo book, so it can't be all bad...I hope!

maewest (79 )    8:17 pm, 4 Aug




Hi everyone


Had a good day, seems everyone has been very busy on here. Read a wee bit but Cass is waiting for a story so I have to be brief. Farm - not really our cuppa, just didnt feel right, I havent bought much real estate in the past but I think we'd know????? Josh got his xbox 360 - but guess what. After making two phone calls to check this we find that none NO none of his games work on it!!! Poor thing. Chris is going to try and contact Microsoft to ask if we can get anything to adapt to it. The guys at two shops said it should be able to play some of the games. They are not making the old xbox's anymore. :( Poor Josh. He got one game with the console - thank goodness. Oh well, glad you liked the bubba, she is one of the only Jerseys we have left in the herd. Mostly black and whites or crosses. FYI lol

paulaxx (78 )    8:20 pm, 4 Aug








You will need to get an emulator for your xbox 360 and even then only some of the games will play. If you check this site you can see the list of games...

janetmk1 (39 )    8:58 pm, 4 Aug






What a darling you are - you made our night! Thanks xoxo

paulaxx (78 )    9:01 pm, 4 Aug




I'm glad :)


Do you have a cd wroter to burn the xbox software onto? If not I can do it for you and send it to you :)

janetmk1 (39 )    9:03 pm, 4 Aug




make that


writer* i am good with typo's lol

janetmk1 (39 )    9:08 pm, 4 Aug




Paula what a shame


about Joshis games. Looks like Janet might come to the rescue!! Yes I think you will know when a place feels right for just know! Is there much on the market down there? Hey Joystik will find you something!!

maewest (79 )    9:10 pm, 4 Aug




Sounds like a shrewd way for Xbox


to make money out of the unsuspectring public?! Not on Xbox! Hope you get it sorted Paula ;o) xoxoxox

soniat-d (153 )    9:23 pm, 4 Aug




hi guys


ryans had an ok day, mucusitis is getting worse but hes not complaining, he was sick a few hous ago and yes up came the NG tube, he was so upset couldnt try tonight will try in the morning......his words i am scared while sobbing his heart out.....boy this is hard. He even said to me i will need a big hug tomorrow...ryan never says this, these tubes coming up are really effecting him....

bogeyi (484 )    9:25 pm, 4 Aug




maewest (i think it was you asking)


tyler is fine he went back to school today, his body will reproduce the marrow over a few months all he has is 5mls of iron a day. Ryan is strictly on no visitors, not even his brother or sister now (our choice) he is most at risk now for any infection even from his own body. I had dinner with the kids tonight so that was nice took them to the local RSA.

bogeyi (484 )    9:28 pm, 4 Aug




Bogey good to hear from


you. Oh poor Ryan. I wish we could all give him a big group hug. Do they really have to put that tube down again? I think you said it was for feeding him. So hard on you too bogey. It's great that Tyler is back at school. It will be so hard on the rest of your family little they can do while Ryan is in isolation. Stay strong bogey...we are all here praying for you. Huge ((((HUGS)))) XXXXXXX

maewest (79 )    9:34 pm, 4 Aug




Nite nite everyone


better try and get sleep....yeah right! I can't remember the last time I managed a full night's sleep! Here goes. Love to all XXXX

maewest (79 )    9:36 pm, 4 Aug




Nanite Maewest


Hope you have a good rest. Bogeyi Poor you guys. I just feel so much for you. Hope the morning try is successful for all concerned. Its not fair!!! Love and big hugs to you guys.

paulaxx (78 )    9:44 pm, 4 Aug






We do have a cd writer - I am trying at the moment to write it to disk. But I cant open the zip file. Dont know what to do next... Can you give me a tip? Thanks for the offer to burn it for us - that is so nice of you. I will try 1st.

paulaxx (78 )    9:46 pm, 4 Aug




yes he needs it not just for the feeds


but if the mucusitis gets really bad and he cant swollow they need the NG to get meds down.

bogeyi (484 )    9:47 pm, 4 Aug




Hi Sonia


MMMM thought this was going to be a breeze for him, now Im sitting here trying to get it working so he has it for tomorrow. How are you and your beautiful darlings?? In the morning I have to take Teddie for his first haircut - should be interesting. LOL hugs to you

paulaxx (78 )    9:48 pm, 4 Aug






Most of the time if you can't open a zip file it will be because theres an error in it. I would download it again and try again. If you still have no luck I am happy to have a go :)

janetmk1 (39 )    9:49 pm, 4 Aug






I didnt know they used them for meds. Not able to do some through the hickman huh? Josh has asked Chris if he will make a video of him and Cass for Ryan to see. Hope to do that tomorrow. Should be interesting - knowing my kids????

paulaxx (78 )    9:50 pm, 4 Aug




Oh Bogey I wish there was something


we could do to help. Poor Ryan with his tubes. I had a terrible night last night and woke up this morning grumpy and full of aches & pains and sat crying in my breakfast then thought of Ryan and told myself to pull myself together.... I'm going thru nothing like he is and now reading about his latest escapade with the dreaded tube, feel really stupid! So I've had my bad day too Sonia. Just getting frustrated that the soreness is getting worse not better. See what next week brings.

landylass (48 )    9:50 pm, 4 Aug




Nite Maewest :))


I hope you have a good nites sleep :))

janetmk1 (39 )    9:50 pm, 4 Aug




I'm so gutted for Ryan too


Awww Bogeyi, the poor dude... suxs man... Hope things improve tomorrow and the tube gets down without too much stress (((((hugs)))))

soniat-d (153 )    9:51 pm, 4 Aug






it asked me what file I wanted to use to open it and I stupidly selected Windows hoping that might work. It now comes up in heiroglyphics??? Darn!! Tried to do it again and it goes straight to that file? Whoops

paulaxx (78 )    9:52 pm, 4 Aug




Paula I was going to ask


about games on the 360 Mr14 wanted to buy one but was told none of the old games would work on the old original one so he opted for a Play Station portable instead. Got to say its brillient. Kids watch movies on it while travelling sharing an earplug each! Oooh thats a lovely new calf... but I don't envy you the next few weeks work!

landylass (48 )    9:53 pm, 4 Aug




hugs to you landylass


Paula NG tubes are great all his pamol,blood pressure meds etc can go through there and he dosent need to be wiken, all chemos and hydration fluids, antibiotics, morphine etc go through the hickman. At the moment he has to be woken through the night for his blood pressure meds.

bogeyi (484 )    9:54 pm, 4 Aug




Hi Paula :o)


Girls are good thx, Lydia's hearing is still dodgy, will need to go back to doc on Monday me thinks... My lumps are OK tonight, yay :o) Just finished my Kahlua hmmmmmmm :o) Hey thats a shame about the farm, sounds like you need Ms Joystik to scout around for you ;o) Hope you find what you're looking for before too long. Have a nice evening :o) PS Loved the smiling pics of Josh, great to see he can keep smiling through all of this, can't wait to meet him xoxoxox

soniat-d (153 )    9:55 pm, 4 Aug




Wish there was something we could all do...


to help Ryan, poor little guy and you too bogeyi its heartbreaking watching your kids go through hell.Can they feed him fluid threw a drip for a few days to give him a break?

janetmk1 (39 )    9:55 pm, 4 Aug




Kiwikaz sorry to hear


B has had another seizure. Hope it wasn't bad. Does it lay him low for a couple of days afterwards? You need to get rid of the bugs before lambing. Hope they mother up well and you don't end up feeding them all! Have a good weekend.

landylass (48 )    9:56 pm, 4 Aug




Hi Paula


Do you have winzip?

janetmk1 (39 )    9:57 pm, 4 Aug






Poor Lydia's ear, I understand it does take a while for ear infections to clear up, glad you like the photos of Josh - we are willing the days away till we meet you too. xoxoxo MMMMm Kahlua ;O)

paulaxx (78 )    9:58 pm, 4 Aug






I am looking right now for that?? Cant see it listed on my program files??? Bum!

paulaxx (78 )    9:58 pm, 4 Aug




janetmk1 hes getting hydration fluids


through his hickman, but he needs some nutrition as hes not eating, he has lost 2kg so far. Its a vicious cycle he dosent want to eat because hes scared he will bring the NG tube up but the feeds arent digesting and hes bringing up the feed at night, tonight though was mucus in his tummy its such a bugger.

bogeyi (484 )    10:00 pm, 4 Aug






Now I see why they are so important. I hope it can be done quickly and painlessly for him. I know last time they used the date rape drug - they used that for Josh too, is that an option this time just to help relax him a bit??? (((((HUGS)))))

paulaxx (78 )    10:02 pm, 4 Aug






Havent got Winzip, dont want to cause you any trouble. Do you know can i just buy an emulator at a shop????

paulaxx (78 )    10:05 pm, 4 Aug




paula they used that on him


and it did nothing, nothing at all so he was really upset cause all the nurses were saying it relaxes you and you wont remember a thing, and thats exactly what he said to them once it was said i wouldnt remember it.. They are going to give him some morphine tomorrow to see if that helps.

bogeyi (484 )    10:08 pm, 4 Aug




Hi Paula


you will need to download it from...winzip... and openthe install then try to open the file ....goodluck

janetmk1 (39 )    10:08 pm, 4 Aug




I just found this online Paula ...May be worth a gander?

soniat-d (153 )    10:09 pm, 4 Aug




(((((hugs))))) bogeyi


Hope the morphine works its magic for you guys tomorrow.

soniat-d (153 )    10:11 pm, 4 Aug




Sonia and Janet


You two are so kind - worrying about this for us. Huge HUGS to you - runs off to have a look at the two new sites xoxoxoxo

paulaxx (78 )    10:11 pm, 4 Aug




No worries Paula


Yahoo is my friend ;o) OK I'd better be a good girl and wrap up now and get to bed - early start again tomorrow, Lydia's ballet starts at 9am (gasp!) and Emily's swimming at 9.30am. This week Lydia's in the window room so I get to watch the class yay :o) Night all, hope tomorrow is a good day for y'all xoxoxox

soniat-d (153 )    10:18 pm, 4 Aug




Hi Bogeyi


At least they are giving him something that will really knock the discomfort on the head this time. I hope tomorrow is a far far better day for you both xxxxxx

janetmk1 (39 )    10:19 pm, 4 Aug




Hi Paula


Did you get winzip installed ok?

janetmk1 (39 )    10:33 pm, 4 Aug






I tried the evaluation option and the short answer is downloaded and no joy with the xbox file :(

paulaxx (78 )    10:36 pm, 4 Aug




Oh Sonia


How Gorgeous. Enjoy your day tomorrow with your girls. Nanite and thanks for the website info xo

paulaxx (78 )    10:40 pm, 4 Aug






If I cant just go and buy an emulator then I will take you up on the offer please.

paulaxx (78 )    10:41 pm, 4 Aug




ok I will give it a go


i will try it now.

janetmk1 (39 )    10:42 pm, 4 Aug




you can download it off..


xbox live or order the cd but it isn't being sent till december I read. third option is to download it. I will give it a try :)

janetmk1 (39 )    10:43 pm, 4 Aug




Thank you so much


What a sweetie you are. Let me know how you go?

paulaxx (78 )    10:44 pm, 4 Aug




Bogey, poor Ryan


What a little trooper he is and you as well . What a load you have too carry but of course your precious wee son is well worth it.Hope tomorrow is a better day. Big hugs to you all

boop2 (109 )    10:46 pm, 4 Aug




Been such a busy day today, and now I'm off to


bed. Hope you have all had a good day too nd have an good restfull sleep to see you right for tomorrow. Thinking of you all tonight but especially you Bogeyi and Ryan.....(((((HUGS))))) to everyone and see you all tomorrow......

joystik (285 )    10:47 pm, 4 Aug






hugs to you and your ryan, hope your getting a wee bit of sleep too. its hard watching them go through so much and you feel so helpless. gee i hope tommorrow is a better day for you both. if only we all had a magic wand we could wave to take it all go away. you mention the midazolam the other day thats what i give hubby now to control a seizure it makes him very tired for about 24 hrs after wards. hope the morphine helps him tommorrow we will be thinking bout you.

kiwikaz3 (10 )    10:48 pm, 4 Aug




Hi paula


What a pain the games not working. Jabnet is doing a good job there she sounds so knowledgeable about the pc, well done Janet. Love to Joshi and Cassie.

boop2 (109 )    10:49 pm, 4 Aug






I have to say it only made Josh a tiny bit out there. he remembered it all too now you mention it :( I hope the morphine works for Ryan tomorrow. Thinking of you - xoxoxo

paulaxx (78 )    10:50 pm, 4 Aug






Hi Boop


I know - yay for Janet!!!! Hope you had a nice day. nanite Joystik - sleep tight xoxox

paulaxx (78 )    10:51 pm, 4 Aug




Hi joystick


night, have a good sleep see you tomorrow.

boop2 (109 )    10:52 pm, 4 Aug






I have the file and will burn it to cd. Can you email me your address and I will courier it to you in the morning my email is this username at hotmail dot com.

janetmk1 (39 )    10:56 pm, 4 Aug






I should be able to email it to u maybe?

janetmk1 (39 )    10:57 pm, 4 Aug




Aw maewest missed you again


I have the roses in a bucket of water and first thing tomorrow will plant them we have some great compost and we can go to the racecourse and get the horse manure at any time. I will make them grow.I am like you enjoy a wine then another but white for me as I can't drink red I just don't like it. We were amazed at all the wineries going in over your side. a lot of the farm land is being planted for miles with grapes and big signs saying "workers wanted" must be good money in it.I am off now, night.

boop2 (109 )    10:58 pm, 4 Aug






Wow - thank you so much! You dont have to courier it. I will email you now - YOU DARLING xo

paulaxx (78 )    10:58 pm, 4 Aug






maybe if you have msn messenger I can send it through there

janetmk1 (39 )    10:58 pm, 4 Aug




your welcome :))


I just hoep it works for Josh

janetmk1 (39 )    10:59 pm, 4 Aug




Just to wish you well tomorrow with the


girls sonia I think it was last Saturday Lydia got sick. Good swimming and dancing. I still think you are over doing it, take care. Love and hugs

boop2 (109 )    11:00 pm, 4 Aug




awww thanks boop :))


its all triasl and error mostly and demanding kids LOL

janetmk1 (39 )    11:00 pm, 4 Aug






I think I have msn messenger?? my address is like yours viva2207 at hot bla bla

paulaxx (78 )    11:07 pm, 4 Aug






I am going to head off to bed now, but thank you so much and I really hope you didnt have a late night because of us. Huge hugs to you xxxx

paulaxx (78 )    11:14 pm, 4 Aug




Everyone... Do you know what.....


Dear Janet stayed up and sent me the file on the computer and I now have a husband behind me on the new xbox snowboarding - COOL EH. So when Joshi wakes up tomorrow he will be able to play some games. ALL THANKS TO MY SAVIOUR - YAY JANET!!!!!! THANKS AGAIN XOXOXOXOXOXOX

paulaxx (78 )    11:58 pm, 4 Aug




hi janet


how does that work just curious? Can you download games or what? well done for Joshi and Chris. How is Danny janet is he any better? take care.

boop2 (109 )    12:17 am, 5 Aug




well done janet


bet joshs face will be priceless when he wakes up. Good morning everyone

bogeyi (484 )    9:15 am, 5 Aug




Support Group On the Gold Coast?


Hi everyone. My 43 year old cousin in Aussie has terminal breast cancer. Does anyone know of support groups on the Gold Coast for her family to hook up with? Thanks :-)

jarojaro (700 )    9:26 am, 5 Aug






He was awake last night listening to us wondering what we were doing lol. Didnt come out though. He is happy - very happy!!! Now How are you guys today? How Ryan??? Be thinking of you, tell him we are going off this morning to get Teddies Hair cut will post a before and after for you to maybe show him if hes feeling up to it. Might be a little distraction???? All the best for the tube and morphine xoxo

paulaxx (78 )    9:26 am, 5 Aug






Josh is thrilled - thanks again. Hope you have a lovley day xo

paulaxx (78 )    9:27 am, 5 Aug




paula hes had phenergan as


he is having platelets, then when hes awake we will give the NG a go.

bogeyi (484 )    9:31 am, 5 Aug




OMG its done he deserves a medal


there wasnt a sound he put his head back counted to 3 and kerry had it in ten seconds, he didnt gob so proud of hm. Kerry couldnt sleep last night knowing she had to do it as he gets really upset, so she is rapt especially when he said she was first equal with jo.....made her day

bogeyi (484 )    10:56 am, 5 Aug




Bogeyi, what a good boy...he really does deserve


a Medal and a huge big hug for being so good about it. I was worried about him and wondered just how it was all going to go. You just be so proud of him Bogeyi, like we all are. Big hugs to you all....Have a great day.

joystik (285 )    10:59 am, 5 Aug




Hows things with you Paula and Josh?? Good to see


you were able to make progress with that new X-Box. I told Lauren about it this morning and she didn't realise that you couldn't play the old games without modification. She thinks thats a bit of a rip off!! But money is the name of the game isn't it. I thought your baby's mum looked pretty much like a jersey cow. Our farm only had jerseys. They have such lovely faces and eyes dont they?? Its another fab day here today. I'm about to do house work, hang out washing, bit of gardening, then out for dinner tonight to Riverton. How will I ever fit work in?? Enjoy your day...

joystik (285 )    11:03 am, 5 Aug




Hi Sonia, you will be long gone to Ballet and


swimming lessons with your wee ladies. Hope the day is nice for you to enjoy too.....

joystik (285 )    11:04 am, 5 Aug




Hi Boop, I'm sure you will have success with your


roses. I think when I bought mine, they had already sat around for too long and with just shreaded newspper round the roots, it had all dried out too much.Some stores are not verygood with their plants and have no idea how to look after them while instore. What are you doing today?? Hope you've got sunshine.

joystik (285 )    11:07 am, 5 Aug




Hi Janet, you are very smart with the computer


arent you?? I am very basic with mine here. Really don't know how to do much more than email and post messages on the thread. But now I know someone I can ask advice from...! Hows Danny?? Hope he's feeling a bit happier in himself. Have a good day at your place too....

joystik (285 )    11:09 am, 5 Aug




Hi Kiwikaz, sorry your hubby had a bit aof a bad..


day. Must be awful for you all, but I guess you all know about it and just deal with it as it comes along. Lucky you, having baby lambs to look forward too. Are you living on a life style block. Nice for the kids to have animals around. Another beautiful day in Southland, an I hope you are out enjoying it as I will be any minute. Thinking of you all......

joystik (285 )    11:13 am, 5 Aug




Hi Maewest, you'll be at work I suppose......


Thanks for the funny email....I do enjoy them all and send them on to everyone too. I'm not a red wine drinker either. Gives me the instant headache. Someone told me once that its the preservative that does that to some people or the lower the sugar content the more likely it is to happen. How true is all that? Aussie wines, I just leave on the shelf! My favourite is Asti Riccidonna, bubbles, or any of the Italian Asti's for that matter, then Saints Sav Blanc, lovely passionfruit flavour. Makes me almost go and get one now! Take care and have a good day.

joystik (285 )    11:17 am, 5 Aug






YAY for Ryan - What a star he is - RYAN ROCKS RYAN ROCKS RYAN ROCKS - WAHOOO!!!!! Champion - love to you. Off to pick up Ted now - man I hated leaving him there. xo

paulaxx (78 )    11:39 am, 5 Aug






What a sweetheart you are. Hope you have a fab night out tonight. Enjoy your day love and hugs to you, Kevin and Lauren xooxo

paulaxx (78 )    11:40 am, 5 Aug




Hi Nana Dize, hope you enjoyed your visit with


the grandkids. Are they they only ones you have or are there others that life elsewhere?? Lovely to have them close enough to visit though. Hope today is must be working its way up to you by now. I see tomorrow is another fab one for us too. Was frosty this morning but somehow didn't seem so cold. The days are really drawing out now too which is great....Have a great day.

joystik (285 )    11:49 am, 5 Aug




You are very welcome Paula,Josh Cassie and Chris..


I just saw those wee things and thought of you guys.....Love to you all too....

joystik (285 )    11:50 am, 5 Aug




Hi Landylass, hope you're feeling on top of the


world today. I think we must have all woken up out of sorts yesterday!! I only have to spend a minute thinking of all the other people I know fighting what I am fighting and soon snap out of it. But, still have days when I think 'why me'. Hope you have sunshine and smiles a plenty at your place today too.....I think of you often....

joystik (285 )    11:52 am, 5 Aug




Hi Meridian.....I would love to see pics of your


kiddies on here? You're part of this big family too you know. Hope today treats you and yours just again soon....

joystik (285 )    11:53 am, 5 Aug




Hi jarojaro, thanks for posting on here. I don't


know of a support on the Gold Coast, but your friend is more than welcome to post on here for support. We are a great supportive group on here and would love to hear from your friend too.....Take care and have a great day too....

joystik (285 )    11:55 am, 5 Aug




Hi everyone


I am glad Josh is getting to play on his new xbox :)) Boop, its just a software file you download and load onto the xbox to enable you to play the old xbox games. You can't download games etc though, you have to buy them. Danny came out for breakfast today, he was really unsure about coming but with some reassurance he came, A huge step forward :))now as you said maewest its probably two steps back but it was nice to have everyone out together.

janetmk1 (39 )    12:01 pm, 5 Aug




Hi bogeyi


I am pleasesd it went smoothly for Ryan today, I have been thinking about you guys heaps, what a relief for you!!! heres hoping it stays there :)

janetmk1 (39 )    12:02 pm, 5 Aug






what a relief for you, and hugs to your brave wee man. hope you have a better day today.:):) jargojargo, sorry to hear about your friend, tell her to contact qld cancer they are very good. they have support volunteers. who have been through the same type of cancers and are willing to talk to you. i had one for my husband and she was great.

kiwikaz3 (10 )    1:07 pm, 5 Aug






thanks for that yes we have some very up and down days. we are dealing with mood swings, personality changes,the drugs for seizures affect him as do the seizures. very hard to watch sometimes what its taking away from him , cancer sure does sux, he had a bad night last nite and this morning. but gone off to sleep now afta a nice massage.:) managed to get out and watch miss 10 play netball they had a great game so cheered me up. yep we live on a lifestyle place and the kids love it.

kiwikaz3 (10 )    1:11 pm, 5 Aug




i am going outside to enjoy


the sunshine and look at fat sheep and do some gardening its sadly been neglected lately catch u all later in the day. southland sure is a beautiful place on a day like today. :)

kiwikaz3 (10 )    1:14 pm, 5 Aug




Hi joystik


I am sorry to say that once again the weather is horrible in Hamilton, cold and grey and bleak. I have 3 grand-children here in Hamilton, Madison (5 next weekend) Daniel (who was 3 in May) and Ryan (almost 6 months). I love them to bits and see a lot of them. Another daughter is having her first baby in December. Your weather in the deep south seems to be far better than ours.

dize5 (490 )    1:17 pm, 5 Aug




Dize thats lovely, all little kids at this stage


and close enough to visit every day if you want to. They grow up so jolly fast, so make the most of them being little wont you. The weather in Southland would have to be about the Best kept secret of the region I am happy to say. I always was lead t believe that the weather was cold and bitter almost 24/7, but it is just not like that. We have only had a few days that have been really bitter all winter, like everywhere else. But overall it is just lovely. Where we are in Otautau, we are very sheltered from the south so miss that cold wind that Invercargill gets. Where today in Invercargill it will be about 11 or 12 deg probably, here in Otautau it is 19 now and fabulous. You should come down and see us. Paula, Farmerlloyd, kiwikaz and I are all here and would find a lovely Cafe to have a coffee with you. Sending you sunshine and hugs......

joystik (285 )    1:28 pm, 5 Aug




I'm so sorry you're having to deal with all that


Kiwikaz, must be just awful. A very close friend of my s-i-l's in going through the same thing with her husband (brain tumor also) Sooooo hard. (((((hugs)))))

soniat-d (153 )    1:46 pm, 5 Aug




Hi all :o)


Busy morning, got to watch Lydia having her dance class. I can see why they rotate them round - Lydia kept turning around to see me through the window, kept waving to me etc, sometimes missing what the teacher was telling her to do LOL I then took the girls out to buy their presents for Dad - managed to sort pressies in record time (a first for me!). Have just got them to bed now, think I'll have a lie-down myself. Will be alone with kids this evening - Brents off to watch the rugby (at the Albany stadium I assume - guess I should know that LOL!)

soniat-d (153 )    1:49 pm, 5 Aug




Hi Joystik


Weather here is sadly terrible, non-stop rain :o/!!! Think we'll be making puppets this afternoon...

soniat-d (153 )    1:50 pm, 5 Aug




Hey Bogeyi :o)


Wow - I am soooooo impressed with Ryan :o) What a first-class champ! Can you give him a big hi-5 from me (or whatever is the "cool" equivalent LOL). Thats such great news :o)

soniat-d (153 )    1:52 pm, 5 Aug




Awwww Dize5 thats so great having


your grandkids so close and seeing them often. We're blessed that way too - Brents parents live 8 houses down the road LOL and my parents usually live 4 blocks away (currently in Europe though but returning in 5 weeks). I grew up in different country to my grandparents, which sucked! I'm so glad my girls get to see theirs so often :o)

soniat-d (153 )    1:55 pm, 5 Aug




Sorry to those I've missed, I'm so tired


for some reason, gotta lie down.... catch y'all later ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    1:57 pm, 5 Aug




1734# thanks joystik.....


... I will pass that on to her :-)

jarojaro (700 )    2:10 pm, 5 Aug




Hi Everyone


Dize5 - My thoughts are with you guys. Janet that was good that Danny made breakfast. Hope you have a good day. Sonia - hope you feel better after a rest. Love to see the puppets once they are made. xo

paulaxx (78 )    2:42 pm, 5 Aug




Just for a laugh


Here is my teddie before a haircut Josh giving him a cuddle. Now with a haircut - I seriously thought they'd swapped dogs lol

paulaxx (78 )    2:44 pm, 5 Aug




Awwwwwww! What a cuuutie :o)


Love the haircut! Mind you he looked great before the haircut too :o)

soniat-d (153 )    3:13 pm, 5 Aug




Paula :)


doesn't he freeze with all that fur gone? but I bet he loves it in the hot summer months. I do the same to our long haired cat coz he is so miserable with a thick coat in summer.

janetmk1 (39 )    4:13 pm, 5 Aug




wow looks a different dog


paula what type of dog is it????looks like you have nice suuny weather down there..

bogeyi (484 )    4:17 pm, 5 Aug




Bogeyi, we have nice sunny weather down here


almost all the time actually. Hows things with you guys today?? Been thinking about you while I've been in my garden, and hope all is well.

joystik (285 )    4:55 pm, 5 Aug




Paula, what a beautiful little doggie.............


doesn't look like the same dog even in the after shots does it. Would love to stay and chat but we are out the door at 5.30 and I haven't been in the shower yet, so I better move it aye.....See you a bit later maybe.....if not tomorrow...

joystik (285 )    4:59 pm, 5 Aug






He is a Bichon Frise - but I am not going to have him clipped like most you see as I dont think the ponsy look is for him??? (or me lol) Janet he may get a bit cooler on those type days but I will keep him inside anyway. He is only 6 months old. You wouldnt have known it by the wooly photos. Bogeyi have sent you an email with the message for Ryan. Hope you all had a great day. Love to all

paulaxx (78 )    6:41 pm, 5 Aug






Ryan is having a sleep at the moment but will show him when he wakes up, he will love it.Thanks josh and cass for your lovely message, i love how the cat wanted to be involved at the end....thank you it made my day

bogeyi (484 )    7:01 pm, 5 Aug






Thats cool. I tried to get Josh to say a bit more but as you could tell he was looking for me to prompt him. So in I came and took over lol. Glad you liked it. The kids had been wanting to do that for Ryan for a while xo

paulaxx (78 )    7:35 pm, 5 Aug






Has Ryans other thread gone???? Couldnt find it anywhere....

paulaxx (78 )    7:53 pm, 5 Aug




hi Paula.....i think it probally has


Ryan has just seen the video he thought it was cooooooool say a big thank you to Josh and Cass

bogeyi (484 )    8:11 pm, 5 Aug




I started a new thread


asking if anybody was on Arimidex, and what their side effects were, but had little response. Any one here on it? I have been taking it for 15 months and seem to be getting a few side effects, but they may not be related, that is why I am interested. One of the side effects listed on Google is a dry mouth, which I have very badly at night. I also am a very poor sleeper and toss and turn all night, and get hot flushes during the night, but that might be just me too, as I have been having hot flushes for many years. Since Arimidex they are "dry" hot flushes though, no perspiring. They are mainly on my face and head. I won't stop Arimidex as I know it is the best drug for me, but any comments, ladies?

dize5 (490 )    8:14 pm, 5 Aug




Hi everyone


Wow what a lot of reading to catch up on!! Bogey, pleased to read that Ryan's tube went down with minimum of fuss. You would have been so relieved. Hope you are having a stress free evening in room 10. (((HUGS))) to you both. Paula, isn't Janet a clever clogs getting some of Josh's games up and running. Well done Janet! Loved the pics of Teddy. He is so cute, with and without his coat. Hope all is well with you too XXXXXXX

maewest (79 )    8:30 pm, 5 Aug




Dize I am on Arimidex


too, but only since March. Must admit I'm sure there are side effects, but would they be happening anyway after all the treatment?? Don't know. I have been feeling the cold really badly..I'm always rugged up even when the sun is shining. Have had a really tingly and numb hand and an aching leg. I have been really restless at night too. Once I get to sleep it's not so's just getting there that is the hard part!! Apart from that, feel great! I go back to the oncologist this month so will mention all the above to him for comment. Thanks for bringing it's good to share. Thanks.

maewest (79 )    8:34 pm, 5 Aug




Hi dize5. Arimidex


I am new to messaging on Trade Me so hope this comes through okay. I am on arimidex and have been now for about 9 months. I had a lumpectomy, chemo and radiation last year. I have dry hot flushes at night but they are getting less and less frequent - phew! Aching joints and bones have been my main discomfort but they are improving too. Thank goodness for it being available to us eh. All the best. (and thanks to all you wonderful people in this thread. I haven't written but have been very blessed by reading your loving, wise and inspiring messages. Thank you)

tut30 (1)    8:39 pm, 5 Aug




tut30 I was really interested


to see you have been coping with aching joints & bones. I have just finished radiation after chemo and sore muscles and joints have been giving me a hard time and no one can tell me how long its going to last! I don't know anyone else that has suffered with this.m Still getting the hot flushes caused by chemo, but I'm not on Arimidex.

landylass (48 )    8:49 pm, 5 Aug






Bogey you will be so glad that one is behind you both. Paula Teddie has grown so much and looks lovely now he is all clipped. My s-i-l has a bf but he is getting on now. When we go stay there he spends all night bed hopping just cause there are some new inhabitants in the house! Thats great about the xbox. Joshi will be stoked!

landylass (48 )    8:53 pm, 5 Aug




three cheers for Ryan


well done . Good for you to bogey. Onwards and upwards now.xxxxxxxxx

boop2 (109 )    8:55 pm, 5 Aug




Beaut day here today...


went for a good walk today so lookout if I don't sleep tonight. Into the suppliements today so we will see if they help the aches and pains. Sonia its so neat watching your kids tackling new things. Hope the back is on the mend. Miss17 got her birthday card today from her "German Sister" and looks like they are all missing her. She announced she is going back for their summer next year. Not very keen to go back to -10! Mmm the idea was to work next year and save toward uni... I wondered how long before another trip to Germany loomed!

landylass (48 )    8:59 pm, 5 Aug




Hi everyone so tired been asleep in


my chair again. We have been so busy getting loads of sand and working out our blocks. A beautiful day in the Buller again lots of sunshine.Hi maewest does take some catching up on when you are late. Hope I last to see the rugby. Joystick , my roses are in news paper and I must admit don't look good. I soaked them in a bucket of water and planted two of them, fingers crossed.Janet pleased about Danny hope tomorrow will be a good day for him.Hi landylass I get arthritis so know what aching bones are about I have just started on cidar vinegar for them. I read the thread and it makes good reading.

boop2 (109 )    9:02 pm, 5 Aug




Hi paula and Joshi


Janet is so clever getting the games going I know you will be enjoying them.Does Cassie have a game too? Night and hugs

boop2 (109 )    9:05 pm, 5 Aug




where is farmerlloyd today


I do hope he hasn't got lost chasing those sheep. Great day in the south for us all.

boop2 (109 )    9:06 pm, 5 Aug




Hi Boop


Have you tried glucosamine?

janetmk1 (39 )    9:07 pm, 5 Aug




Hi Landylass (love your name)


Yes the treatments apparently leave us aching, as well as the Arimidex (so I gather from my Drs). They said the side effects would ease. I suddenly noticed the hot flushes and aches weren't dominating my existence as they were the first few months. Hope you will find that too, soon. It took a while too for me to no longer have the cancer dominating my every moment - a head thing! I heard myself say "My cancer...." and suddenly stopped and thought "Hey it's not MY cancer- it's THE cancer and Get Away!" Yahhhh! It was a flick in the head thing that happened. I love reading about you guys and raising the sword. We do everything possible that we can, don't we - the treatment, arimidex, positive attitude and healthy things, and then we just have to get on and LIVE. Thank you for this thread as it has helped me heaps.

tut30 (1)    9:07 pm, 5 Aug




Hi Boop


that soaking of your roses won't do them any harm. Have you cut them back? I have flicked through that cider vinegar thread too...interesting. Not the first time I have heard about it. I have had aching joints too but put it down to age!!! lol!! Might give it a go myself. Been a beautiful day too on this side of the island. Shame I was stuck inside for most of it.

maewest (79 )    9:08 pm, 5 Aug




Hi tut30


welcome to the thread. It's a great place to be part of. I agree, it's a head thing...I look forward to not being in my head most of the time!!Pleased to hear the side effects lessen with time. Are you arimidex for 5 years? Seems to be the plan at the moment.

maewest (79 )    9:12 pm, 5 Aug




Landylass, good evening to you


You sound like you are still in a lot of discomfort with your aching joints. Maybe we should all try the cider vinegar/manuka thing. Who knows?? It can't do any harm. Sounds like you have a lovely day down there too. It's just the poor old north that's copping it. Another trip to Germany coming up?? The itchy feet syndrome!!

maewest (79 )    9:14 pm, 5 Aug






aching joints and muscles not sound good. hope the alternatives help the body, i been out in the garden all afternoon havin a clean up, hubby woke up in a good mood after a bad start to the day. did miss 17 have a good birthday?? i am thinking of what to do with miss 10 for her birthday next week. for some fun for her and some friends.

kiwikaz3 (10 )    9:18 pm, 5 Aug




Hi Maewest


Yes I'm on the 5 year plan. At the moment it looks as if one then goes onto Tomoxafin (sp?) but who knows what exciting things might be around by then. Arimidex was a break through that got funding just as I got to the hormone pill stage. Phew!

tut30 (1)    9:20 pm, 5 Aug




And hi to everyone else


Sonia..hope you are feeling better today, especailly after a nap. Farmerlloyd..yoo hoo...where are you?? Joystik...still busy, busy. When are you going to slow down? Janet..pleased to hear that it has been a good day for Danny. Josh is in respite care for a few days and seems much better there. I think he would like to be independent of family, but doesn't have the funds (or a job!) to support it. Ups and downs! Take care.

maewest (79 )    9:20 pm, 5 Aug




Tut 30, yes it was only


partially subsidies when I started but is now fully subsidised...great. It took me a few weeks to start taking the pills..I just couldn't bring myself to do it after all the treatments. What a wuss! The biggest hassle is that you can only get it from the hospital pharmacy and then they will only supply one month at a time.

maewest (79 )    9:23 pm, 5 Aug




Hi all, my another busy day on here


and I miss out - again! Been non-stop really. Took us all afternoon to make the puppets LOL. I made Emily a mouse (that looks more like a teddybear from the front LOL) and Lydia a Rabbit. Lydia loves hers so much she's gone to sleep with it :o) Here they are with them, Emily and both girls Anyway, then Lydia went off with Neighbours to watch Alicia's dance performance, Brent went to rugby so I took Emily to Pizza Hut ;o) We all arrived home about the same time. Homes a MESS so gotta go soon sadly xoxox

soniat-d (153 )    9:25 pm, 5 Aug




Kwikaz sorry to hear that


things haven't been too good with you. I think it is actually harder for the support person to deal with sometimes. You are doing a fantastic job. New lambs soon will be a welcome distraction. (((HUGS))) to you

maewest (79 )    9:26 pm, 5 Aug




Hi Maewest


Yep feeling good this eveining thanks :o) Just got a huge pile of ironing screaming at me (has for a few days, time to sort the must-dos from the OK-withouts ;o) Lifes too short!

soniat-d (153 )    9:27 pm, 5 Aug




Wow Sonia you are such


a clever clogs. Well done. The puppets are gorgeous, as are your darling girls. Ironing...yuk. I have hidden mine in the hot water cupboard so I don't have to look at it!! lol! I will be heading off to bed soon..a long day at work tomorrow. Yip life's too short! The mundane stuff can just wait!

maewest (79 )    9:30 pm, 5 Aug




Awww I wish we had new lambs! So cute!


My parents just emailed her a pic of the grounds where they live with the wild rabbits running around over it. Lydia was soooo jealous! Poor kid wants a rabbit more than anything! This morning when getting the pressies for Brent we popped into the pet shop and they had a rabbit on a little leash hopping around the shop. Lydia was so taken by it! She came home and made a rabbit out of cardboard (3-D) and put a leash around it drawing a pattern on it just like the one she saw, and then "walked" her cardboard rabbit around the house!

soniat-d (153 )    9:30 pm, 5 Aug






What a hassle to only be able to get it from the hospital! Here in Wellington there are a number of pharmacies which are allowed to dispense it. Is it worth checking with your branch of The Cancer Society?

tut30 (1)    9:31 pm, 5 Aug




Aww Sonia you will


have to get her a real rabbit. They are not much trouble. There are some really cute one. I love the ones with the big floppy ears. Lydia obviously has your talent for making things..I'm hopeless!!

maewest (79 )    9:32 pm, 5 Aug




Hi Tut30


Welcome to the thread :o) Great tips from you, I know nothing of Arimadex (yet) touchwood!

soniat-d (153 )    9:33 pm, 5 Aug




Hi kiwikuz....


wow I knew that birthday was coming soon but it has rolled round quick. Its hard when their birthdays fall in the Winter. My kids loved having all their mates outside in the tent for a campout but a bit chilly this time of year. They both had slumber parties at 10 then a 2-3 mates to stay the night after that, DVD's, even been know to put the tent up in the bottom lounge! Did she win her netball today? Miss 17 played a game, ended up having to ref the 4th form team she coaches and other refs never turned up so she did another game after that too. Picked her up at 3.30 and she was starving! Quick dash home for food and she was away to work.

landylass (48 )    9:33 pm, 5 Aug




Tut30, not a bad thought


It was the oncologist who told me that it was only available at the hospital. I will give the Cancer Society a call this week. Thanks.

maewest (79 )    9:33 pm, 5 Aug




I want a rabbit too Maewest!


Its Brent who has said NO! ...We have no grass,at all, so it'd be a bit of a major... I'll try again in a few months - the leash thing made me think "Well, Lydia could walk the rabbit to grass!"

soniat-d (153 )    9:34 pm, 5 Aug




Sonia don't go away


another hundy looming!

maewest (79 )    9:35 pm, 5 Aug




You could line the bottom of the


hutch with straw Sonia. I think you should have a rabbit!!

maewest (79 )    9:36 pm, 5 Aug




Thanks for the welcome Soniat-d.


Thanks too for sharing your beautiful family. Puts a smile on this old granny's face every time!

tut30 (1)    9:37 pm, 5 Aug




bump for Sonias



landylass (48 )    9:37 pm, 5 Aug







landylass (48 )    9:37 pm, 5 Aug




Go Sonia



maewest (79 )    9:38 pm, 5 Aug






you still around?

landylass (48 )    9:38 pm, 5 Aug




Thank you for all replying so quickly


My Arimidex is subsidised now too, but there is only one pharmacy in Hamilton that has it cheaply, but at least I can get 3 months at a time. Interesting to hear about the aching limbs, my left hip aches terribly in bed (fine during the day) and that keeps me awake too - never thought of any connection with the Arimidex. My surgery was on the left side. Do any of you get the dry mouth at night? I am on it for 5 years. I am seeing my cancer surgeon again next month (3 monthly visits at present) so will mention it, but don't want to stop Arimidex and go onto Tamoxifen, as he said Arimidex is far better for me.

dize5 (490 )    9:39 pm, 5 Aug






Did I get it???

soniat-d (153 )    9:40 pm, 5 Aug






i agree only iron what you have do there is better things to do. a rabbit i nearly got miss 5 one for her to have her own special pet to love they are so cute and cuddly, lambs hmmm the neighbours had a orphaned one alreday and the kids wanted to bring it home and bottle feed it i had to be hard because i dont know how many we will end up with . We got 15 sheep and two are real pets that hubby named salt and pepper because he could remember that. we feed them bread every day and they talk to you at the fence. !

kiwikaz3 (10 )    9:40 pm, 5 Aug






Sorry guys, was off emailing Paula, got back in the nick of time LOL!

soniat-d (153 )    9:41 pm, 5 Aug






Please don't laugh - but what is bumping and hundy??? I've at last worked out lol but the others have me stumped!

tut30 (1)    9:41 pm, 5 Aug






thanks. have a nice sleep do you have to work tommorrow?

kiwikaz3 (10 )    9:42 pm, 5 Aug




LOL Tut30


Bumping... when you make a post, it moves (bumps) the thread to the top ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:42 pm, 5 Aug




Phew Sonia


I thought you had disappeared on us!! Another one...yay!! Dize Arimidex is fully subsidised shouldn't be paying anything! Strange about l/h surgery and hip. Mine is r/h surgery and leg! Probably coincidence.

maewest (79 )    9:43 pm, 5 Aug




Sshh who mentioned that


ironing word! Ironing isn't life threatening, it doesn't contribute to the economy, its like the sox monster but in reverse.... I'm sure there is a ironing monster who sneaks more stuff in my ironing basket before I get to the bottom of it! Best just shut the door and forget it until you see someone in your household dashing round naked then you can realise why!

landylass (48 )    9:43 pm, 5 Aug




Hey maewest I agree ;o)


Totally! Brent only wants a dog, period, but will he be the one to walk it? Noooo :o/!!! I think girl-power will win in the end!

soniat-d (153 )    9:44 pm, 5 Aug




Yes Kwikaz


12 hours tomorrow. 10am to 10pm! A long day but it gives my 3 days off (sometimes!!) during the week.

maewest (79 )    9:44 pm, 5 Aug






is when you bump the thread back up to the top when it gets down the list and hundy is a hundred i guess. landylass yep miss 10 won today she has really clicked with the netball in last couple of weeks and apparently they are in the final regardless to the results of next week game.managed to get hubby down to watch her last week, he was able to work out where she was and keep up a little. she had a smile on her face to see dad and nana there so was pleased for her.

kiwikaz3 (10 )    9:45 pm, 5 Aug




Good girl Sonia


Girlpower!! Yes!! Dogs are a lot more work than bunnies..cuter too. Landylass you crack me up!!

maewest (79 )    9:46 pm, 5 Aug






lol i have visons of them all at your house now running round naked at 8am on monday looking for sox and the like lol heee hee!!

kiwikaz3 (10 )    9:48 pm, 5 Aug




I'm off now


The man is hovering over my shoulder wanting to get into his chat room....steam engines!!! How boring!! This is much more fun. Nitey nite everyone XXXXXXXXX

maewest (79 )    9:48 pm, 5 Aug




Thats a long day maewest


but I guess its easier getting home later at night than having a really early start in the morning. Enjoy your days off.

landylass (48 )    9:48 pm, 5 Aug




Its goodnight from me too


Off to do... whatever...?!

soniat-d (153 )    9:50 pm, 5 Aug




LOL Landylass


I like your style! Boooo to ironing! I stopped doing it and the world did not die! In fact my girls then learned how to do it and my husband too!!!! You go Girl!

tut30 (1)    9:50 pm, 5 Aug






dogs are a lot of work. we have two labs too. go for girl power and have a cute wee bunny. you dont have to walk them!!

kiwikaz3 (10 )    9:51 pm, 5 Aug




Hi everyone, it is a bit late for chatting here


and there are so many pages I need to read to catch up on all the news sure moves at quite a pace. Been off tonight with my family to the local operatic society production in our little town of Gore " The Sound of Music " Was a good evening of entertainment. Am finished with the chasing of the sheep at the moment. A last minute change of plans now means that the 100 ewes I was going to keep for lambing this year are now destined to be sold this coming week. I had the scanning man go through the mob on Friday to sort out the dries from the inlamb ones. ( same as an ultrasound used in hospitals) So it looks as if lambing will be a non event here once more !

farmerlloyd (24 )    12:09 am, 6 Aug




All sensible people will be asleep now


and it is about time I was also !!! Nite nite everyone ..

farmerlloyd (24 )    12:11 am, 6 Aug




Good morning everyone


WAKE UP!!! Wah! Wah! I want to be asleep too! Work beckons. You will all probably be back in bed by the time I get on here tonight!! I must be mad!! Hope you all have a loverly day. Talk to you tonight XXX

maewest (79 )    8:36 am, 6 Aug




Morning all :o)


Yes I know dogs are a lot of work! Life here is way too hectic for one of those ;o) We really don't have a property for pets (except a cat, but Brent doesn't like cats). #sigh# Anyway, another gloomy morning here sadly - grey and drizzly. We're off down to the in-laws this morning for a brunch - the first of Brents birthday things, even though it isn't till Tuesday. My lumpy area feels awful this morning dammit, sore and lumpy. Have decided will ring my breast surgeon on Monday and discuss it, maybe get her to give it a good feel and see what she thinks. Anyway, hope you all have a good morning :o)

soniat-d (153 )    8:41 am, 6 Aug




Goodmorning all


I was going to try and beat you Maewest, by putting the first post up for the day But she won. Have a good day at work I have work also but thankfully not the huge 12 hour shift that you have. Beautiful day here AGAIN no clouds no wind and lots of sun

farmerlloyd (24 )    8:44 am, 6 Aug




Morning one and all


Please note I did not say GOOD morning. The weather in Hamilton is absolutely foul. It has rained all night, and doesn't look like letting up. Please joystik don't write and tell me you have brilliant sunshine!!! Our weather has been stink all the week, at least it is not foggy I suppose. It is my husband Tom's 68th birthday today, we are having a family dinner tonight at Grillers Restaurant in Hamilton, so that will be lovely. Have a good day everyone.

dize5 (490 )    9:06 am, 6 Aug




good morning all


your right sonia yucky weather outside. We had a very restless night with vomiting and out the other end, but the tube stayed down.He feels yucky today but i think its because his tummys empty, he not eating and his NG feed is only 5mls an hour at the moment until we can get him to tolorate it. Sonia I better get my A into G and see i i can pop out and get randal something as well, he will understand if i cant..

bogeyi (484 )    9:07 am, 6 Aug




Awwww bogeyi poor Ryan!


He's not having much fun is he poor lad. I still think its hilarious that Brent and Randall have the same birthday! Could you get him vouchers maybe (Westfield/Music/Whitcoulls/Garden?) Brent loves getting vouchers so he can chosse what he wants himself. I haven't given him those though LOL

soniat-d (153 )    9:14 am, 6 Aug




hopefully i can pop out for an hour or so


today, but im going to order those dial a chocolate cakes where they deliver the mosy yummy mud cake for about $35.

bogeyi (484 )    9:17 am, 6 Aug




Hi all!


'Sunny Hawke's Bay' is less than sunny today - to say the least! Rain rain go away! Poor Ryan - I am glad he kept his NG tube down though. What a brave wee boy! Bogeyi - the cake sounds awesome, and $35 is pretty good! Sonia - what sort of pain do your lumps give you? Is it an achey pain, or a sharp pain or something else? I get alot of pain on my mastectomy site and believe it is 'phantom pain' like amputees get. I have read about this befrore. Could it be that??? Poor you - it's not fair aye.

meridian1 (300 )    9:46 am, 6 Aug




Joystick - my babies ......


Here is Phoebe and Lennon I wonder what the weather is like where you are? I do hope it is better than here xxxx

meridian1 (300 )    10:03 am, 6 Aug




Morning everyone.....I'm sorry to have to report


to you all that once again, the Southland area is again bathed in beautiful warm sunshine. We had a brilliant white frost but the sun had melted that all alway now and the day is stunning. Sorry you guys further up are getting so much dreary stuff. I would send you some sunshine if I could, please believe me, I would!! I'm never home i seems, and am out again shortly, so I better get cracking hadn't I. Will talk again later though.....Have a great day everyone...

joystik (285 )    10:04 am, 6 Aug




Hi Paula


I was suprised also that the xbox games don't work on 360 with out modification. What a money making ploy huh! I guess you'll need 360 games to get the full appreciation of the better graphics. I hope you all have a great day today - give joshi and cassie a hug for me - they are adorable kids! How is Joshi doing? I hope he is tolerating the chemo and not getting too much grief with the side effects.

meridian1 (300 )    10:07 am, 6 Aug






hugs to ryan, hope things improve today for him ,

kiwikaz3 (10 )    10:17 am, 6 Aug




meridian 1


had a look at your pics your kids are great. i had a silly night last night listening to mr 13 and dad enjoying a movie. there was deep belly laughs from both and it was music to my soul to hear. after the ups and downs of the last few days with the mood swings etc.

kiwikaz3 (10 )    10:22 am, 6 Aug




Aww Kiwikaz


that's cool! Don't you just love those deep belly laughs. That kind of joy is infectious too ;-)

meridian1 (300 )    10:32 am, 6 Aug






I see you also have a 10yr old daughter who plays netball. My daughter's team won 27:7 on Saturday. They haven't lost a game this season! Sounds like your daughter's team are a bunch of pretty good players too. How lovely that her dad came to see her play, she must have been so chuffed! I hope this coming week will be a good one! (((( HUGS )))) to you!

meridian1 (300 )    10:40 am, 6 Aug




Hi Kiwikaz, Meridian, Bogeyi, Sonia, Joystik


Kiwikaz I bet the laughter was music to your ears!!! Thats great. Meridian - BEAUTIFUL children!!!! They are just gorgeous! Thanks yes mmmm the xbox, I dont know what I think about the whole thing! Josh is doing ok, I just took the two kids to school to have a play on the awesome playground. Josh is not feeling energetic but at least I got him out. Bogeyi, sorry you have such a crappy night. Hope Ryan is better today? Thinking of everyone xox

paulaxx (78 )    12:36 pm, 6 Aug




Sonia, Landylass, Maewest. Boop, Farmerlloyd


and anyone else Ive forgotten - HI Big wave. Sonia - bugga about your sore bits again hope the specialist can ease your mind tomorrow. Best wishes xoxo Josh just said his back up wish would have been now he knows all the ladies with breast cancer dont get a wish - would be that you all got a wish like the kids do. ;O) What a lovely thought

paulaxx (78 )    12:39 pm, 6 Aug




Hi All


Well Brent just copped a feel over that area and agreed it doesn't feel good, given our luck with birthdays, and his due in 2 days, I think its bad news. I'll call the specialist tomorrow. I'm bummed :o(

soniat-d (153 )    1:30 pm, 6 Aug




Oh Sonia


Im so sorry your going through this again. Will keep fingers, toes and everything else crossed. Thinking of you and sending you all the strength in the world. Happy birthday to Brent. Huge(((((HUGS))))) & lots of warm fuzzies!!!!! Keep strong, love Claire XOXOXO

cole2 (367 )    2:00 pm, 6 Aug






That is just awful. I know it is hard, but stay strong. No news is good news at this stage. It is much easier said than done to put bad thoughts away, but you have loving vibes from so many people here. Sword high!!

dize5 (490 )    2:33 pm, 6 Aug






Sword up my friend. HUGE but gently ((((((((((HUGS))))))))))xxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxox

paulaxx (78 )    2:36 pm, 6 Aug




Thanks Ladies


And so the game begins again - if you guys felt it you'd know, its just hard lumps all over, little ones, and the one I usually feel feels bigger. I can't quite believe it, but deep down, I know, as I have for a few days now, have just been hanging on hope. Can hang onto that for another day or few ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    3:04 pm, 6 Aug






(((Hugsss))) This must be the most torturous part of cancer, where it plays a million tricks with your mind and for various reasons, your body too.The waiting to see each day if its getting worse or better and if its going will it come back and will it be picked up in time.I remember all the thoughts like it was yesterday and it really sux big time.Maybe it would be good to see your specialist every week for a while just to get the reassurance to help you through this time. I wish there was something we could do or say to make it easier for you.

janetmk1 (39 )    3:14 pm, 6 Aug






Here you are sending out good vibes to all the other thread friends yet all you can do is think the worst for youself. Positive vibes only please - you deserve it. The mind is a powerful thing and you really need to be positive...

zhapod (0 )    4:11 pm, 6 Aug




I'm really not thinking the worst for myself


Was so convinced the vit C was working, can't escape the discomfort in that area - an all too familiar feeling :o/!!! But thanks, just plugging on... as you do ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    5:10 pm, 6 Aug






Hope your day has been as ok as it can be in that place. Love and hugs to you - The kids were so happy Ryan thought the message was cool. xoxoxo

paulaxx (78 )    5:15 pm, 6 Aug






Just wanted to say hope you can have a restful night. Thinking of you. Love and a warm cuddly hug from us xoxoxoxo ;o)

paulaxx (78 )    5:17 pm, 6 Aug




Thank you Janet :o)


You said some wonderful things - Right on the money! Only trouble is we're flying out this Sunday! Talk about cutting it fine! I'm sad for you that you know the thoughts and worries I have first-hand. I only think those who have had a recurrence can truly understand what its like. I had so much faith and optimism first time around, its quite depleted at the mo, but I'll get up again ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    5:51 pm, 6 Aug




Hi Bogeyi and Paula :o)


How are your dear boys getting on today? xoxoxox

soniat-d (153 )    5:51 pm, 6 Aug




Thanks also to Cole2 and Dize5


I appreciate all the positive vibes and hugs. Thank you :o)

soniat-d (153 )    5:53 pm, 6 Aug







missymuffit (3 )    5:59 pm, 6 Aug






keep strong although that easy for me to say. and i sure you get sick of people saying that to you. i know its hard to keep the bad thoughts away especially at night time when the busyness of the day is gone. we go through the same thing here some days with the seizures wondering if the tumor is growing again. having something to look forward to seems to help us. keep you going. at the moments its the lambs a first for us. hugs and happy vibes to you to keep those negative vibes away. cancer sure is a roller coaster ride u never know when the next dip or turn is going to be?

kiwikaz3 (10 )    6:04 pm, 6 Aug




Hi sonia big hugs to you


you are one strong lady we have only met a few times and I can tell from the chats we had. Do you think that because of the timing (birthday) that you may be a bit more anxious as its also a special day......does that make sense...

bogeyi (484 )    6:23 pm, 6 Aug




well our shit night has carried on all day


he has been sick a few times today very mucusy and i think thats whats upsetting his tummy, not eating being NG fed but only havinh 5mls an hour so when we stopped it he had about 38mls (hardly anything), hes also going out the other end and now his poor wee bottom is sore looks like maybe ulcers, we have just given some morphine and hes having a wee nap. Hes not complaining though i had to push to get him to say yes to the morphine hes suc a good boy.

bogeyi (484 )    6:27 pm, 6 Aug






oh poop was wondering how your day was. hugs to you and ryan. how are you going? hanging in there. so hard to watch, are you able to get a wee break from the hospital for 5? will be hoping for a better day for you guys tommorrow.

kiwikaz3 (10 )    6:30 pm, 6 Aug




kiwikaz hi


I did go out for 2hrs today to get Randals present and i was flying through the shops, he was getting pretty anxious for me to return by the time i got back......I'm fine at least i can walk over to get coffee or go for a walk outside which is all i need.

bogeyi (484 )    7:00 pm, 6 Aug




So are you happy with what you got for Randall


Bogeyi? Hope so! Sorry to hear poor Ryans still battling away with all these complications. Damn! Glad they gave him Morphine - what a godsend that can be ;o) Hoping like anything that he gets a better night tonight xoxoxox

soniat-d (153 )    7:20 pm, 6 Aug




I am he will probally go oh


Got him trendy clothes sick of his old stuff so to bad, actually he was saying a few weeks ago he needs new clothes he was feeling so

bogeyi (484 )    7:22 pm, 6 Aug




Its funny Bogeyi you're the second one who


asked if I was anxious/stressed at the mo!? No I don't think so, I've been CHILLING big time! I knew Brent was feeling superstitious about his birthday with everything, but we figured the bad news, if at all, would come after we got back from Fiji (scans on Liver etc). I wasn't too worried about that either, figuring "what will be will be". This area's just gotten sorer lately, as I've mentioned on this thread from time to time, making me feel it more... Even so, no stress levels really - I was STRESSED a couple of years back, suspect thats what started all this, STRESSED again during second chemo (so cancer followed both those stressfull episodes) but since April, nope, I'm like an island, surrounded by calm, and all the bad stuff is happening over there on the mainland, if you know what I mean ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    7:28 pm, 6 Aug






Hey maybe everything's fine, I keep telling myself its the radiated area, people said it would go lumpy, and that the lumps would swell and shrink as they die, still hoping that is all this is. Fingers majorly crossed!

soniat-d (153 )    7:28 pm, 6 Aug




Cool :o)