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2001.

 

hi bogey Iwill try

 

boo

boop2 (109 )    3:20 pm, 7 Aug


 

2002.

 

well done bogey

 

I hate it when the others do it

boop2 (109 )    3:21 pm, 7 Aug


 

2003.

 

thanks boop

 

me to, they are always lurking.

bogeyi (484 )    3:25 pm, 7 Aug


 

2004.

 

Hi joystick

 

I am dying to have a ride on my bike sometime the poor thing is going rusty. Are you enjoying the real estate at the moment I can't get over the way houses are selling out country, still. We were so busy laying our pavers over 440 of them yesterday and I jst went out and my p.i.t.a .husband has the barbacue sitting wham right in the middle of them well I have news for him. I have lovely garden seats and pots to go there and that spoils the look of it. Men, couldn't you at times. Enough moaning we are getting some rain today too , we have been so lucky. Take care

boop2 (109 )    3:28 pm, 7 Aug


 

2005.

 

Hi maewest

 

you are a hard worker but having three days off in a row is better. Just had a ring from my precious wee grandaughter asking me to go to her ballet recital in December she is only four. Delightful, her other gran teachers her. Poor zinnie has two left feet at the moment but she loves it.Everybody is having a hard time on here at the moment it is heartbreaking. Takecare and have a good sleep.

boop2 (109 )    3:49 pm, 7 Aug


 

2006.

 

Hi Boop, nice to see you. I cant do anything in

 

the Real Estate Industry yet. First you have to get a job with a Real Estate Company and then they apply for your licence to practice as a salesperson. I think that takes 2 weeks. I just go out with my friend for fun at the moment. Have to go for another interview with the same company this week. Haven't heard what day yet, but could be tomorrow, hopefully. Another licencesee within the firm wants to see me as well, and I heard they were pleased with me so its all starting to look better. Then I can find Paula and Chris a farm. Sun is out here now too, but it has been a much colder day today, and we had quite a lot of rain this morning too. The bike ride was very chilly indeed!!

joystik (285 )    4:18 pm, 7 Aug


 

2007.

 

Hi Boop

 

No I dont get my wee man his own gel (gosh, he's such a mischief that he'd probably use the whole lot in a day). I actually use mousse in his hair cause he has very fine hair and gel is too heavy. My daugter also uses mousse because her hair is very curly in the front and straight in the back (?). Without mousse it's just a frizzy mess around her face ;-)

meridian1 (300 )    4:40 pm, 7 Aug


 

2008.

 

Bogeyi

 

I too am so glad you got it. I hate it when others steal a hundy or a thousy too - thought it was just me being my old septic self lol. So glad Ryan had a little to eat. Yea now I understand how it is for you with your brief visits to the hospital with your other darlings it does suck!!! Poor you - cloning mightnt be so bad after all??? Give our love to Ryan and save some for you too xoxo

paulaxx (78 )    4:47 pm, 7 Aug


 

2009.

 

Hi Meridian and Boop

 

Just popped in to say hi - now I have to go cook tea. have a good night. xoxo

paulaxx (78 )    4:48 pm, 7 Aug


 

2010.

 

Hi Paula

 

How are you sweetheart? Poor wee Joshi. I bet he gets really frustrated. It sux that Joshi has this illness - for Cassie too, but on the upside, they have an awesome mummy! I hope Joshi is enjoying his new Xbox. Our kids have Playstation 2, and if he could Lennon would spend every waking moment playing Crash, or Scooby Doo or Madagascar ...... Phoebe loves The Sims, Singstar, Buzz and they both enjoy Eyetoy.

meridian1 (300 )    4:49 pm, 7 Aug


 

2011.

 

Kiwikaz

 

Thanks to you and Paula for thinking of me with my cough, but really it's nothing. I slept all afternoon, so hopefully that will fix me. I generally don't get alot of bugs and lurgies. There are far more worthy recipients of you concern on here. Our daughters do sound alike. Phoebe has always been the nurturing type. She used to get so frustrated when her brother was born (she was 5) that she couldn't do more for him. They do fight, but when they share those tender moments, it's just beautiful (and luckily they happen often).

meridian1 (300 )    4:55 pm, 7 Aug


 

2012.

 

Sonia

 

I'm glad you are feeling a little better now, but please don't apologise for being upset. It sounds like Lydia is very intuitive! She is such a sweetie isn't she, and she also sounds alot like Phoebe. Even now she comes up to me and says 'your pretty mummy' and 'your the best mummy', all those little compliments I love to hear. Lennon has already started to be embarrassed about giving me a kiss when his friends are around, but Phoebe loves it, and doesn't care who is around.

meridian1 (300 )    5:01 pm, 7 Aug


 

2013.

 

Hi again bogeyi

 

glad you got the hundy - number 2000 - Yay. Happy birthday to Randall tomorrow (and to Brent). Crossing my fingers that Ryan has a good night, and that you get a decent sleep. Good to hear that he has eaten, albeit a small amount. I guess small is probably better after such a long time of nil by mouth. Love and hugs to you both, and to Birthday boy Randal, huggly snuggly Tyler, and goofball Kirsty. I love goofiness ;-)

meridian1 (300 )    5:08 pm, 7 Aug


 

2014.

 

Hi Meridian

 

Im good thanks. Although my friend said I looked like cr@p I guess a true friend is honest. I still have a cough and snuffle but feel so so so much better thanks you darling!!!!! I hope the sleep helped to make you feel a lot better. Have a lovely night! Oh and yes Josh loves his new xbox he can now play 3 of his games (thanks to Janet) which is better than none. Love to you all at your place xo

paulaxx (78 )    5:15 pm, 7 Aug


 

2015.

 

Joystik

 

I bet the ride was a cold one. Did you have an icicle on the end of your nose when you got home. LOL. Hope you have a lovely WARM night, Im off to dish up the sweet n sour chicken and rice. Josh has hidden in his room, cant stand the smell of cooking. Do ya think he going to eat any of it???????????? Im guessing that a big NO! Bugga! Love to you, Kevin and Lauren xo

paulaxx (78 )    5:17 pm, 7 Aug


 

2016.

 

sonia, your email wouldn.t work

 

Hi sonia, sorry your email was rejected, just wanted to let you know coffee group at my house wed. Leona any time after school drop off

leonab (305 )    5:26 pm, 7 Aug


 

2017.

 

I am off for tea too

 

rest easy paula and bogey and I pray those wee boys will as well. Hugs

boop2 (109 )    5:29 pm, 7 Aug


 

2018.

 

Cheers Leona ;o)

 

Wonder why my email didn't work? Getting others... will send you one now ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    5:33 pm, 7 Aug


 

2019.

 

Hi all :o)

 

Nice afternoon :o) But my surgeon never called me back! About to call her on her mobile! It's a chilly night, will be back later :o)

soniat-d (153 )    5:35 pm, 7 Aug


 

2020.

 

Well jostik our weather

 

certainly hasn't improved, it is still raining, raining, raining. My husband went for his usual evening river walk (in the wet - he must be mad!!) but said a lot of river paths are under water, as the Waikato River is in flood. Please don't tell us in the morning that you are having sunshine again!!

dize5 (490 )    5:51 pm, 7 Aug


 

2021.

 

Just popped in for a minute

 

Chris is out tonight to a school Quiz nite. Im just off to read to the kidlets. Hope you got hold of the specialist Sonia - not fair to keep you waiting all day :0/ xoxo

paulaxx (78 )    7:07 pm, 7 Aug


 

2022.

 

ditto Paula popping in briefly

 

just sitting down for 5mins, Ryan has been real grooty this afternoon, his head has spent alot of the time in a sick bowl.....he has just been sick again out both ends and has a lovely long shower, looks better but wont last.....will hopefully post some pics tonight on photobucket

bogeyi (484 )    7:15 pm, 7 Aug


 

2023.

 

Hi there ladies :o)

 

Awwww Bogeyi, sorry to hear Ryans having a rough time - again! :o/ What I would do to take all that away from him. He's such a delighful child, doesn't deserve all this at all. How long is this expected to go on for? Do they have an estimate?

soniat-d (153 )    7:49 pm, 7 Aug


 

2024.

 

Just tucked

 

both the wee fraggles in. But alas they are both calling out already. Bogeyi poor Ryan. Poor you. So hard to watch, you must be wrung out. He must be exhausted. Truley SUX :( Love and hugs to you.

paulaxx (78 )    7:55 pm, 7 Aug


 

2025.

 

thanks sonia and paula

 

his tummy is sore and he has asked for morphine, so hes having a rest now......cracks me up when nurses come in and a little person asks for morphine sounds so funny

bogeyi (484 )    7:57 pm, 7 Aug


 

2026.

 

Hi Paula

 

It got too late by time I could make the call so I texted her instead. My text went "Hi Shaz Looks like my lumps R growing again?! Vernon gave me form for a CT, having that Fri morning. Do I need 2 do a CA153 also? Going to Fiji this sunday..." (had to continue in second text LOL)"...for 10 days, back on 23rd. Want 2 get any tests done this week so you can all discuss next plan of action b4 I return. Thanks Sonia td". Sent that at 6pm. Just got reply 5 mins ago "Hi Sonia No don't worry re Ca15-3 at present. Just do a CT - Most of all have a fab time in Fiji" I sure hope she calls tomorrow to discuss a bit further?! Oh well, no worries, am much calmer and resigned again now. It seems that I just need to have one emotional explosion after each bout of bad news, then seem to coast along... seems to be my thing ;o) Thanks all for your suport xoxoxoxox

soniat-d (153 )    7:57 pm, 7 Aug


 

2027.

 

Actually Paula, it wasn't so bad out biking.......

 

I went round to the other house to see what Kevin was up to, and arrived just in time to help him lift the new stove and dishwasher from the garage into the house. He had spent the day fitting the new kitchen in, and it looks great. Have to get a sink insert next time we go to town, so he can fit that, before attaching the bench top. All starting to look good. Came on to rain while I was there so I out the bike on the truck and accepted a lift home.

joystik (285 )    8:00 pm, 7 Aug


 

2028.

 

Oooh I love new kitchens Joystik :o)

 

Brent said I can get a new kitchen if the other house sells :o) Can't wait!

soniat-d (153 )    8:02 pm, 7 Aug


 

2029.

 

Well Sonia, she didnt seem too bothered really did

 

she?? Maybe she will phone in the morning to discuss things in more detail and give you the oppportunity to do the same. Glad you are feeling better tonight. Gearing up for the birthday tomorrow I guess to and being very positive about things. I've sent you lots of warm caring thoughts and hugs, so I hope you are feeling better.

joystik (285 )    8:04 pm, 7 Aug


 

2030.

 

No Brent, not IF the other house sells, but WHEN

 

the other house sells. Think positive Brent, it will sell. Yes I love new kitchens too. We were only ever going to do this place up to on sell it, but as I see it getting closed to completed, I start to think, perhaps we should move there, so I can have the new house. But we probably wont, because we would ultimately like a place closer to the native bush somewhere, and that one isnt any closer than his is. Its on a 1/2 acre section or 2023 sq M.

joystik (285 )    8:10 pm, 7 Aug


 

2031.

 

Don't worry Joystik

 

We KNOW it'll sell! Its a gem ;o) We're doing a bit to it first though. Got it chemwashed today, then getting HRV installed, the painters in, new shower and stove, and redoing back deck. Then it'll go on the market ;o) So when was more referring to time-wise ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    8:16 pm, 7 Aug


 

2032.

 

I agree Joystik

 

My surgeon doesn't seem too concerned eh?! Hope she's right ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    8:18 pm, 7 Aug


 

2033.

 

Sorry Bogeyi..........I dont want to hear that....

 

poor Ryan is having a hard time. Thats just not fair. Hope he is feeling better after his nice long shower. And hopefully he will enjoy some restful sleep tonight, and feel better tomorrow. Can they give him better drugs to stop the vomitting altogether?? They tried all the useless ones on me first, and then when none of them worked, gave me that Zofran,that works really good for me, but they are pretty stingy with it only allow 6 per script!! Thinking of you Bogeyi and sending you both (((((HUGS)))))

joystik (285 )    8:19 pm, 7 Aug


 

2034.

 

OOOH I love Kitchens too

 

Am thinking if we dont buy a place with a house on it an dhave to build - Bring it on!!! Sonia - Alright for her isnt it!!! Sorry, but my gyney specialist would do the same thing to me and all I wanted was peace of mind. Totally different case I know to what you are going through. Ok, as long as you are comfortable with how its all going and can get on that plane on Sunday and feel the thrill of take off. It will be a wonderful holiday - I just got excited for you ;o) Joystik - man its frigid here tonight - the weather that is. Fire is roaring but this computer is in the cold end of the house so better not stay on too long. Real Estate Agent has a property to show us in Waimumu which would be cool, just a couple of hundy g's out of our price range lol. Think we shouldnt waste his time. There is one farm at pukerau with a house on it - will have to suss the kitchen though lol

paulaxx (78 )    8:20 pm, 7 Aug


 

2035.

 

Yes you should look anyway.....most things are

 

negotiable in the Real Estate Industry Paula, and you might get them down to meet more what you want to pay. I think I am on to a place with about 98acres and a house, but not just yet!! But its more over this way. Our weather is better here though, and I would have no idea of price either. I think its frosty out side, so it will be a ripper, with that rain to freeze as well that fell earlier today. Stay warm.....

joystik (285 )    8:24 pm, 7 Aug


 

2036.

 

I don't know if I'm comfortable with it LOL

 

Paula, but this is like round 3, all feels a bit familiar, and hey I got through the last 2 ;o) Ok my outlook looks a tad grimmer each time, but oh well... I'm clinging to the hope that Vit C and bracytherapy will do the trick. Am I dreaming?!

soniat-d (153 )    8:27 pm, 7 Aug


 

2037.

 

hi everyone

 

It has taken me ages to catch up on all the news. I think of you all often and send good vibes your way. Have a great holiday Sonia, I hope things go well on friday. Fingers etc crossed. Christine

gregp3 (6 )    8:32 pm, 7 Aug


 

2038.

 

sonia

 

Where are you going in Fiji?

scottygirl_1 (19 )    8:36 pm, 7 Aug


 

2039.

 

Sonia

 

I can only imagine how it feels for you. You are doing all you can and deserve this peace of mind. Friday now, wait and see. I just wish that these people in the medical profession could just once jump over and see it from your/our side. Step into the shoes of one riding this wave and see what they would like done if it was happening to them and then accommodate. Oh well maybe now I'm dreaming lol. MMM Fiji. Cocktails, (non alcoholic of course ;o) or not) fruit, now I sound like your mum lol. It will be awesome.

paulaxx (78 )    8:40 pm, 7 Aug


 

2040.

 

I have posted some new pics

 

on ryans photobucket site of todays miserable day.

bogeyi (484 )    8:42 pm, 7 Aug


 

2041.

 

Joystik

 

MMMM - sounds interesting??? Like to know more about that one when and if. Yes I spose we should go and have a look at Waimumu except its already out of our range and hasnt a house on so kinda dreaming again me thinks. Oh just bought a ride on lawn mower - can you imagine me hooning on one of them. Its a special deal dont pay till 2007 so havent got it till all the paper work goes through. Think it will be a hoot. Will save me a bit of time I guess. Hope the new place has a big lawn or that could be a joke! Our bossess had it in our contract that we had to have one thats the only reason we got one now. Oh well, time will tell.

paulaxx (78 )    8:44 pm, 7 Aug


 

2042.

 

No Sonia, you're not dreaming at all. Have to

 

always look at things positively no matter how much it seems to be something else. I must say the attitude of the specialist seems a bit complacent to me, but maybe its just her way of putting your mind at ease for the night. (((((((HUGS)))))))

joystik (285 )    8:45 pm, 7 Aug


 

2043.

 

Bogeyi

 

Im off to check them out. Better grab the tissues too I think xo

paulaxx (78 )    8:45 pm, 7 Aug


 

2044.

 

Hi Scottygirl

 

Going to a hotel in Denerau (near old ond new Sheratons) called the Sofitel - quite new, and supposed to be devine :o) Yeah Paula, what the hell, think a few cocktails will be consumed ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    8:45 pm, 7 Aug


 

2045.

 

She's actually always like that Joystik LOL

 

Come to think of it... she's a glass-half-full gal. Need that at times like this LOL But I prefer the long detailed positivity, like I get in meetings with her, not the flippant texts LOL

soniat-d (153 )    8:47 pm, 7 Aug


 

2046.

 

Awwwww poor Ryan

 

Looks just awful, poor kid. (((((hugs))))) for a strong battler xoxoxox

soniat-d (153 )    8:50 pm, 7 Aug


 

2047.

 

Cool Sonia!

 

I saw that hotel being built last year and it looks great - very luxurious so enjoy it as much as you can in the circumstances. My best friend was just diagnosed with breast cancer today and has surgery on Friday. Not sure how bad yet.

scottygirl_1 (19 )    8:52 pm, 7 Aug


 

2048.

 

dize 5

 

hope you get some good weather tommorrow up in the north you sound like you are growing webb feet up there?!! its cold down here in the south tonite so maybe a frost again?

kiwikaz3 (10 )    8:56 pm, 7 Aug


 

2049.

 

Bogeyi

 

just tears at my heart strings seeing him like that so can only imagine what it does to yours. Poor kid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He really is a trouper though! Tell him I still think he is a dude even with a sickie container stuck to his face. He is a star!!! Love and huge Hugs to you both.

paulaxx (78 )    8:57 pm, 7 Aug


 

2050.

 

What kind of surgery is she having Scottygirl?

 

Do you know? (Lumpectomy / mastectomy / reconstruction?) Please give her my best wishes. My new bit of advice to women facing this for first time now is, forget vanity, makes sure a good generous margin is taken around the lump. Forget the cosmetic issues, worry about that once you've got the all clear ;o) My original surgeon thought he was being nice by leaving me some breast tissue, so the natural shape of under my breast remained (to make later reconstruction more even). We all kinda wonder now whether a complete, non-pretty mastectomy may have got all the buggers that were in my case left behind in that area... oh well too late now for me, just like to make others aware of that. My best wishes to her for Friday (remember I'm the rare exception, most women beat the monster first time ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:02 pm, 7 Aug


 

2051.

 

bogeyi

 

can't stop thinking about the two boys and there battle. what brave couregous little dudes they are, bogeyi hope your hanging in there too. big hugs to you both and we are all hoping and praying for a better day for you guys tommorrow,

kiwikaz3 (10 )    9:03 pm, 7 Aug


 

2052.

 

So whats the plan for Randall's birthday

 

tomorrow Janine? Present opening in the hospital? Just wondering. Kinda sucks for him I'm sure having his adorable son so ill on the day. Hope you guys manage to make it a good one xoxoxoxo

soniat-d (153 )    9:09 pm, 7 Aug


 

2053.

 

I'm not sure what type of

 

surgery as I'm a bit chicken to phone her - just texted her. She had her biopsy on Thursday, travelled to my 50th birthday party on Friday (Wgtn to Auckland) and didn't want to tell me about it until after but I knew there was something wrong. I am presuming by her lack of contact that the news from the biopsy is bad as she is a nurse who works in the plastic surgery/reconstructive area. I agree about taking it all - if it was me I'd seriously not care as long as they got it all. I'll let you know when I find out more.

scottygirl_1 (19 )    9:09 pm, 7 Aug


 

2054.

 

Aww try to overcome the chicken in ya Scottygirl

 

Just tell her your thinking of her and want to help in any way you can. Honestly at this stage, she'll be feeling overwhelmed, emotional, worried etc etc. Doesn't mean results are that bad, any cancer is bad! With each day, things get better, there'll be ups and downs... you're welcome to read my experiences of those early weeks, may help you understand what's ahead of her. Halfway down this page http://www.sonia.tyler-davies.co.nz/0509Sept/Sept2005.htm - god look how skinny I was then - damn chemo... ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:13 pm, 7 Aug


 

2055.

 

reading

 

ive been sitting here reading all these threads,amazing,there is so many nice supportive people out there, it makes me feel so emotional,and so many of us out there that suffer on a daily basis, trying so hard to stay positive and yes cancer does suck.:( im 49 soon i hope to see my 50th,take care stay strong

reece47 (125 )    9:13 pm, 7 Aug


 

2056.

 

Hang in there Sonia!!

 

Gawd damn specialists really p**s me off. I really feel for you right now.

janetmk1 (39 )    9:22 pm, 7 Aug


 

2057.

 

Reece47

 

Thanks for your supportive words. I would be lost now without all my friends in this thread. They are all amazing people alright. Take care

paulaxx (78 )    9:22 pm, 7 Aug


 

2058.

 

Thanks Janetmk1

 

I know, if they could walk a mile in our shoes...

soniat-d (153 )    9:23 pm, 7 Aug


 

2059.

 

Ok my friends

 

Thanks for being there as always. I am off to bed to read - sweetest of dreams to you all and stay strong! Nanite xoxo

paulaxx (78 )    9:23 pm, 7 Aug


 

2060.

 

Sonia

 

thats for sure..

janetmk1 (39 )    9:24 pm, 7 Aug


 

2061.

 

nite Paula

 

Hope you have a good sleep :)

janetmk1 (39 )    9:24 pm, 7 Aug


 

2062.

 

Tell me about it Paula

 

Yes thanks Reece, the people on here are my rocks. Thats why I started the new thread immediately I realised the old one was gone?! Can't be without all you guys, how long will this last? Maybe time to start copying again...

soniat-d (153 )    9:25 pm, 7 Aug


 

2063.

 

Its goodnight from me too

 

Its a busy week and I've gotta start packing whenever I have the free time! But will pop in whenever possible. Thanks all for your support today - I'd not have recovered so quickly without you! xoxcoxcoxoxoxoxoxxo

soniat-d (153 )    9:27 pm, 7 Aug


 

2064.

 

night Sonia

 

Have a good sleep :))

janetmk1 (39 )    9:28 pm, 7 Aug


 

2065.

 

Bogeyi

 

Is ryans site on caring bridge? I did have it a while back but can't find it now :(

janetmk1 (39 )    9:30 pm, 7 Aug


 

2066.

 

www.caringbridge.org/ak/ryan

 

...

bogeyi (484 )    9:35 pm, 7 Aug


 

2067.

 

I forgot to get some wrapping paper

 

so the nurses and I have been cracling up cause I am going to use a hopital sheet/towel bed liner something from here...hahahaha I have a yummy chocolate cake being delivered from the chocolate cake company.

bogeyi (484 )    9:38 pm, 7 Aug


 

2068.

 

Thanks Sonia..

 

I will phone her tomorrow and yes, I have read right through your wonderful life story. How beautiful your wedding day was.. and your renovations. Then life throws you this curve ball - I just don't understand it.

scottygirl_1 (19 )    9:43 pm, 7 Aug


 

2069.

 

LOL Bogeyi

 

I am sure he will understand,will he come to the hospital for his cake with you guys? Ryan has probably heard it heaps before but I gotta say it, he has beautiful eyes. what gorgeous kids you have!! I hope tomorrow is a lot better for you both, its so horrible watching your child vomit and vomit when there is nothing in there stomach,Jordan is due to go through weeks of it soon so I can really feel for you guys.

janetmk1 (39 )    9:51 pm, 7 Aug


 

2070.

 

he will think its funny

 

yep hes oming in the morning dosent know i have ordered a cake. well im off for an early night i can see its going to be a long night..

bogeyi (484 )    9:54 pm, 7 Aug


 

2071.

 

Good night Paula and Sonia....hope you have a good

 

sleep and sweet dreams both of you.I have my interview at 1.30pm tomorrow, so I will let you know what happens. I got the notification from the REINZ today that I had passed and also from the Open Polytech too. Thinking of you all constantly - my friends .......

joystik (285 )    9:55 pm, 7 Aug


 

2072.

 

Nite nite to you too Bogeyi, and I hope its not to

 

long a night for you. Ryan is beautiful in his pics, and still looks great for what he has been through and is going through. Give him a wee hug from me and tell him he's doin great. You are too Bogeyi, but get some sleep wont you. Love to you both, and have a lovely day tomorrow with Randal for his birthday. Will be thinking of you.....

joystik (285 )    9:58 pm, 7 Aug


 

2073.

 

Hi Sonia

 

Have just updated myself on your website. It's a nasty and horrid journey and your mind is playing such awful tricks on you. Stay strong and boot those negative thoughts far away from your mind!I'll keep you in prayer tonight - Stay strong ((hugs)) Winnie.

winnie15 (119 )    10:03 pm, 7 Aug


 

2074.

 

Scottygirl, sorry to hear about your friend too...

 

best wishes to her for a successful outcome on friday. Its not always all bad, just bad enough! Good to stay as positive as is possible. Thanks for posting too. I'm off to bed now so I will wish you all a very good night, sweet dreams, and warm ((((HUGS)))), thats for you scottygirl, kiwikaz,Landylass, Meridian, Boop, Dize, Maewest, reece47 and Janet and Farmerlloyd. ....See you all again tomorrow....

joystik (285 )    10:05 pm, 7 Aug


 

2075.

 

OMG! Friends :o/!!!

 

Have organised a big dinner for all our friends this Friday, and 11 confirmed they'd come. Cool :o) So tonight one emails me complaining about what one of them said to her 2 years ago (which I knew about but assumed they'd moved on), and if he's attending (as he is) she won't come?! To me she says this?! Today!? I emailed her back just now, and told her to build a bridge and get over it LOL She got me on a bad day! ;o) How rediculous, I hope she still comes... we were just going to put them at opposite ends of the table for crying out loud!Hmph...

soniat-d (153 )    11:07 pm, 7 Aug


 

2076.

 

Oh BTW My new resolution for next three weeks

 

Is NO MORE FEELING THE LUMPS!!! Nope, what's the point, the CT's coming, feeling them and noticing anything won't change what happens so... ;o) Good thinking eh?! Night all xoxoxoxo (((((hugs))))) to all my new levelheaded friends on here ;o) xoxoxoxoxo

soniat-d (153 )    11:14 pm, 7 Aug


 

2077.

 

GOODMORNING

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRENT AND RANDAL HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU. Hope you both have a fantastic day. Hi Sonia and Bogeyi - wishing you the nicest day possible with your guys too. Love and hugs to you all xoxoxoxoox

paulaxx (78 )    7:58 am, 8 Aug


 

2078.

 

*joins in the singing*

 

Happy birthday to Randal and Brent. Have a great day Sonia and Bogeyi - Hi Paula! Lenny is off school today, I'm much better but he's got the cough now (bummer). Gotta go take Phoebe to school. Love to you all!!!

meridian1 (300 )    8:05 am, 8 Aug


 

2079.

 

Been catching up on the thread

 

Good luck for Friday Sonia and I'm glad you've made a new resolution about feeling the lumps. The mind can play awful tricks on us all. I certainlt have moments of paranoia especially when I am tired or stressed. As for those fueding friends, tell them to "get over it" and act their ages. There are far more important things in life. If adults can't sit at a table (opposite ends be it)they are not worth the trouble!!! Have a great trip to the tropics and get overdoses of R+R for you and Brent. Sounds like he needs some down time too!

zhapod (0 )    8:19 am, 8 Aug


 

2080.

 

Morning Everyone :))

 

Hope the birthday boys have a great day!! Its wet, windy and cold here today so I am staying close to the fire and getting the paperwork done. The boys have gone off to school moaning that its too cold to go to school, LOL, and Danny won't get outta bed :/. I will give him another 30 mins then try again. Even the cats are behaving strangely jumping around like kittens, only they are too big for that now so they look kinda funny.

janetmk1 (39 )    8:55 am, 8 Aug


 

2081.

 

happy birthday,

 

to sonia and bogeyi, hope you have a good day today with your husbands, wishing them both a happy birthday. bogeyi, glad you having a laugh bout your pressie last nite good to get a laugh. hope ryan didnt have to bad a nite and you both got some sleep.

kiwikaz3 (10 )    8:56 am, 8 Aug


 

2082.

 

bogeyi,

 

i had a look at his caring bridge site and everyone is right he does have beautiful eyes. :) i got two girls home today with the bugs so better go and pay them some attention, hubby is good today too. had a good night sleep :) whoever said sleep was overrated was lying!!

kiwikaz3 (10 )    8:59 am, 8 Aug


 

2083.

 

Morning everyone......and a big HAPPY BIRTHDAY

 

to Brent and Randal today. Hope you day is a happy one for both of you and your families. Hows young Ryan feeling today? Hope he had a better night last night and is feeling better today for Dads birthday. Hi Bogeyi, you're pretty organised aren't you, even down to the birthday cake. Hi Sonia, your birthday tea sounds like fun. Hope the guests can bahave themselves! Shame when people do stuff like that and involve YOU!! Wishing you all a great day anyway, and the kids too.....

joystik (285 )    9:00 am, 8 Aug


 

2084.

 

I totally agree Zhapod

 

I'me very disappointed in them - Lydias friends get over fights better than these "grownups"?! I'm just a bit gutted cos Lissa WAS my best friend before the big C hit, she's one of the ones that just fell off the radar. I can't be bothered with it all, whoever will turn up will ;o) Another pals just called saying he's bringing his new girlfriend so that'll be fun :o)

soniat-d (153 )    9:08 am, 8 Aug


 

2085.

 

Morning Paula and Josh. Hope you guys are

 

well and happy today too. Bit murky looking out here this morning but at least the sun is struggling through the clouds, and makes one feel better! Is it much the same out your way too? Stay by the fire and keep warm. We're of to town for the Interview at 1.30pm. Hi Kiwikaz, I agree, nothing beats a good sleep. Glad your man is feeling better today. Hope the weather clears and warms up a lot!! Talk again soon.....

joystik (285 )    9:13 am, 8 Aug


 

2086.

 

Sonia

 

I hope you are feeling a bit better today. You are prbably going to think I am nuts for suggesting it but here goes anyway... when I was feeling really bad I went to see an excellent hypnotherapist, when I left there I felt so good about myself and the problem was kinda shuffled aside like a bill you have to pay at some point. I still knew the seriousness etc, reality was still there but the inner peace and serenity was the best feeling I have had in my life, it lasted for a few weeks. Its something I would totally recommend.

janetmk1 (39 )    9:14 am, 8 Aug


 

2087.

 

Good morning all

 

A big HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the birthday boys. Sonia and Bogey, have a lovely day with your families. I love chocolate cake Bogey...save me a piece please!! Enjoy. How is Ryan this morning? Poor wee bloke. I felt so sad when I read what he had been through yesterday. Yes he does have beautiful eyes. They say the eyes are the window to the soul. I think it is true. You can tell how people are feeling just by looking into their eyes. I hope it is not too long before the XBoz is in use again. Thar will be a sure indication that he is feeling better. Big ((((HUGS))))to you all XXXX

maewest (79 )    9:37 am, 8 Aug


 

2088.

 

Sonia, I'm so sad

 

you had a bad day yesterday. Good girl for making a resolution not to feel those lumps!!! Hope you are feeling heaps better today. Love your girls. Even the littlies pick up your vibes. Dear wee soul (I think you said Lydia) for trying to lift your spirits. Enjoy your day with your family and especial the birthday boy. Special ((((HUGS)))) to you all XXXX

maewest (79 )    9:40 am, 8 Aug


 

2089.

 

It must have been the day

 

for it yesterday. I woke up feeling sad..not for me but for my boys who have been through so much. I woke up reliving that dreadful day nearly 4 years ago now. Dragged myself around all day and was really glad to get home from work last night. Feel much better today though after a good sleep.Onward and upwards!!!

maewest (79 )    9:43 am, 8 Aug


 

2090.

 

All the best for your interview today joystik

 

You will be fine, you have so much going for you. A tiny little ray of sunshine is peeping through here, let's hope it lasts. Have a good day everybody on this thread.

dize5 (490 )    9:50 am, 8 Aug


 

2091.

 

Joystik good luck for today

 

Hope your interview goes well. It sounds to me like you already have one foot in the door! You were very brave going out for a bike ride in the cold yesterday. It's freezing here today. Poor wee lambs in the paddocks. I have lit the fire and don't plan on moving very far. Kwikaz I am so pleased your hubby had a decent sleep and feels good today. It is amazing what a good sleep can do for you. Have a happy day. Janet have you managed to get Danny out of bed yet? It is so hard to get them motivated to do anything when they are in that frame of mind. Sounds like you are in for a few hard weeks with your boys. Don't forget to have a vent on here!! Interesting suggestion about the hypnotist. Wouldn't mind having a go at that myself! Love and (((HUGS))) to you all.

maewest (79 )    9:52 am, 8 Aug


 

2092.

 

Good morning Dize

 

Lucky you having a ray of sunshine (only 1??). No chance of that happening here today I wouldn't think. I have been watching a huge hare who lives in the paddock over the fence. He is huddled up in the middle of the paddock and looks like a bit of hay. Wonder why they don't seek shelter under a hedge?? You have a lovely day too. XX

maewest (79 )    9:54 am, 8 Aug


 

2093.

 

I've had a few friends and relatives who have had

 

a visit from the C. And it is so hard to know what to do when you're "so to speak" on the outside of the bubble. You have to understand everyone reacts differently. One of my relatives pushed us all away. Then as we later found out. They complained to everyone else how their family deserted them. A friend of mine, who only ocassionally called us then demanded all our attention.

zhapod (0 )    9:56 am, 8 Aug


 

2094.

 

And good morning

 

to everyone else. Yoo hoo...where are you all? Scottygirl, so sorry to read about your friend. We on here are all living proof that there is life after surgery and treatments. I hope you have given her a call. Some of my friends have never contacted me, I'm sure it's because they just didn't know what to say!! Just stay close to her and be her listening post. She will appreciate and love you for it.

maewest (79 )    9:58 am, 8 Aug


 

2095.

 

cont...

 

all the time. We are all different and it's best to be friends rather than at each other throats. I even forgave me relative, they do realise now what they did and we think it was just their way of getting attention from others just that little bit removed from the family.

zhapod (0 )    9:59 am, 8 Aug


 

2096.

 

Hundy for a the C suffers

 

Our thoughts are with you

zhapod (0 )    10:01 am, 8 Aug


 

2097.

 

nearly

 

there

zhapod (0 )    10:02 am, 8 Aug


 

2098.

 

closer

 

...

zhapod (0 )    10:02 am, 8 Aug


 

2099.

 

Zhapod I guess everyone

 

reacts differently. I think after the initial diagnosis you are just in state of shock and just telling friends and family where you are at is hard. You don't want to bother anyone. But at the end of the day you just want to be accepted the way you are and it's the support from all these people that help you through it.

maewest (79 )    10:03 am, 8 Aug


 

2100.

 

Yahoooo

 

ooooooo....

zhapod (0 )    10:04 am, 8 Aug


 

2101.

 

Sonia the hundy is

 

for you XXX

maewest (79 )    10:04 am, 8 Aug


 

2102.

 

Haha Zhapod

 

you were too quick for me. We will be up to that 5000 again soon.

maewest (79 )    10:05 am, 8 Aug


 

2103.

 

That's right maewest

 

in the end all we all want is acceptance. The sad thing is that when things like this happen it can cause sooo much stress. My motto in life now is to tell it how it is then put it to rest. Good on you Sonia for standing up to you friends. I'm sure they won't stop being your friends.

zhapod (0 )    10:09 am, 8 Aug


 

2104.

 

Paula good morning

 

to you. Hope all is well in your world today. Hope those calves don't decide to arrive in this weather. Poor wee things. I'm sure that Joystik will find the perfect place for you. She is one determined lady. I hope Josh's aches and pains are not so bad today. Stay warm and have a lovely day (((HUGS))). Boop, good morning to you too. Have you got all those roses sorted? And is that bbq still sitting the middle of your pavers? I did have a laugh about that. Typical male!! They do some strange tings sometimes. You stay warm too...I suppose you are napping in that chair!!! Might do a bit of that myself later! Have a lovely day XXXX

maewest (79 )    10:10 am, 8 Aug


 

2105.

 

Hi Maewest

 

Sorry you had a bad day yesterday . :(( I think most of us get them for various reasons but you have been through such a nightmare.. I had a friend who did the same as your husband and I see his kids quite often and feel so sad for them.They unfortunately don't have a supportive mother, so their lives are a total mess.I am sure your kids are doing well as your obviously a great mum :)) I hope today brings more cheerful things your way :))

janetmk1 (39 )    10:11 am, 8 Aug


 

2106.

 

5000 is just small stuff now

 

With all the threadies and those watchers out there I'm sure you'll double that in no time.... Cancer may Suck but this thread keeps you all inspired and connected.

zhapod (0 )    10:12 am, 8 Aug


 

2107.

 

Thanks Janet. Yip I'm

 

a box of birds today. I was really tired, so that didn't help. It's just hard pushing all those things out of your head sometimes!! My boys (men! 25 & 21) are really good and have just got on with it. Brett, the older one,is having a baby in January with his girlfriend. He has probably struggled the most but has very supportive workmates as well who helped him through. Kieran graduated this year (Bachelor of Commerce). He is still at Uni this year and has a job lined up at Ernst & Young starting in Feb. I am just so proud of them both. Bugga the tears are welling up again!

maewest (79 )    10:16 am, 8 Aug


 

2108.

 

Awww maewest

 

Your gonna be a granny :)))))) I bet you will spoil your grankids to bits. Sounds like your sons have done really well, you must be so proud of them.

janetmk1 (39 )    10:35 am, 8 Aug


 

2109.

 

Hehe Janet

 

Yip a granny!!Getting the wool today to start knitting a shawl...that really will make me feel like one!!! Just made myself a big bowl of porridge...soul food! Really must go and have a shower and get dressed. Being really lazy today!

maewest (79 )    10:39 am, 8 Aug


 

2110.

 

Here is

 

a pic of them taken on graduation day in April...my 'babies!http://images.trademe.co.nz/photoserver/6/25381806_full.jpg

maewest (79 )    10:48 am, 8 Aug


 

2111.

 

finally I can get on.....what a hell night

 

poor Ryan had a shit night, about 10pm i buzzed the buzzer twice as Ryan was in pain that I have never seen him in before.....it was horrible, they gave him some morphine I have never heard him yell like that.About midnight we finally got to bed and he was up every hour to two hours going to the toilet his poor wee bum.The mucuositis is getting worse his throat is sore to swallow now so will see what they are gong to do. Gawd i am so tired today...

bogeyi (484 )    10:50 am, 8 Aug


 

2112.

 

Thank you for the birthday wishes for Randal

 

happy birthday to brent hope you have a good day.....

bogeyi (484 )    10:53 am, 8 Aug


 

2113.

 

Oh Bogey

 

that's awful. Hell it's not fair. The poor wee guy. You must just feel so helpless with all that going on. I think this question was asked earlier...do they know how long he is going to be feeling like this? He will be drained..and so will you. My thoughts and love are with you both. ((((HUGS)))) XXX

maewest (79 )    11:05 am, 8 Aug


 

2114.

 

Oh Bogey

 

Poor Ryan. My neice went through this with her daughter twice and now her daughter is 20 and a picture of health! I can't imagine how hard it must be for you all.

scottygirl_1 (19 )    11:11 am, 8 Aug


 

2115.

 

Sonia and others with

 

breast cancer. My best friends got her results yesterday and she has two malignant tumours in her breast. Now all we can hope is that it is contained and non agressive.

scottygirl_1 (19 )    11:12 am, 8 Aug


 

2116.

 

maewest

 

you deserve to be lazy enjoy, had a look at your pics cool about being a grandmother are you excited??? happy knitting!! you must be so proud of your other boy graduating .. :) have a better day today.:)

kiwikaz3 (10 )    11:54 am, 8 Aug


 

2117.

 

bogeyi

 

oooh what can we say except we are all still thinking of you hang in there. you are doing so good . gee i hope he turns a corner soon. hope you both get a nap in today too. hugs to you both.

kiwikaz3 (10 )    11:56 am, 8 Aug


 

2118.

 

Oh Bogeyi

 

Man - Poor kid! I hate it when Josh cries in pain - we already feel powerless over this whole ordeal and yet Mums are supposed to fix it when it hurts. Bugger it. You guys dont deserve this. my thoughts are with you. Hoping for a better day/night for you xoxoxo

paulaxx (78 )    12:21 pm, 8 Aug


 

2119.

 

Maewest

 

Heres a snuggly cuddle for you! Wow I would be proud too with those fine young men!!! Gorgeous photo, you are a superb mum. Sorry you were a bit down yesterday. Something in the air. Love and hugs to you xoxoxox

paulaxx (78 )    12:23 pm, 8 Aug


 

2120.

 

Hi Janet, Kiwikaz, scottygirl

 

and anyone else. Busy busy doing the GST I like to get it done early as I never know what my life is going to get thrown again. Thank goodness I did the same last month as ended up in hospital and it would have been a rush. Thinking of you all. Scottygirl - what sad news. Shes lucky to have you as a friend! Hope everyones day is going ok. Love to you all xoxo

paulaxx (78 )    12:25 pm, 8 Aug


 

2121.

 

Hi all just had a quick read

 

only have a few minutes, sounds like yesterday was bad for several of us (((((((special group hug))))))) Here's hoping todays a better one ;o) Had my vit c this morning (went well, still a way from dose required to give full effect so there's still hope ;o) and picked up my CT scan gloop on the way home to collect Emily. Leaving in 1/2 an hour for the dentist (won't be fun!) then later this avo Back specialist appointment and this evening out for a fancy dinner (what to wear?). House is a tip yet again and nanny appearing in half an hour so better get moving, get some lunch in me too. (((((hugs))))) to you all xoxoxoxxoox

soniat-d (153 )    12:28 pm, 8 Aug


 

2122.

 

Here's the stupid email from my friend this mornin

 

"Sonia, As I said Ken might go - and as I said I cannot forgive such abuse which was not deserved or appropriate treatment from a so called "friend". Despite you having cancer and being able to forgive everything with a different perspective, I am not you and my not going is not to offend you in any way - it is me not wanting to sit there (albeit at the end of the table) pretending to be comfortable - not my idea of fun sorry. It would make things too tense. Sorry but I'll catch you another time. Have a lovely holiday." Good grief, I can't be bothered responding again. Her loss.

soniat-d (153 )    12:30 pm, 8 Aug


 

2123.

 

Sorry I'm going on about my friends

 

But I've known them all for 19 years, Brent's known 5 of them for 35 years! I adore them all, hate this :o( Anyway, onwards and upwards, sending big hugs to Ryan and Bogeyi, and Paula and Joshi - hope you boys get on OK today, in spite of everything xoxoxo Later all (((((hugs)))))

soniat-d (153 )    1:04 pm, 8 Aug


 

2124.

 

Dearest Sonia

 

Six words come to mind - hope I dont offend you hun but for your friend ..... SEE YA WOULDNT WANNA BE YA. LOL. You my friend have better things to do with your time as I am sure you know. Hope you dont give her a second thought! Actually youve gotta laugh dont you. I keep getting stupid emails from someone re their tough life. OMG to just have their worries for a day. No idea, they have just no idea. All the best at the dentist. :O/

paulaxx (78 )    1:46 pm, 8 Aug


 

2125.

 

Sonia

 

I hope my words didnt offend you. I just feel for you thats all - I am a sensitive person and am starting to get a back bone not a wish bone. I have worried about people and what Ive said might have upset them bla bla bla, I just hope this hasnt affected you too much. Sad she cant be there for you guys. Hugs to you ((((((((((HUGS))))))))))

paulaxx (78 )    1:49 pm, 8 Aug


 

2126.

 

Maewest :))

 

Thats a lovely pic of your boys,doesn't your son look very distinguised in his graduation garb :)) you must be very proud of them both :))

janetmk1 (39 )    1:53 pm, 8 Aug


 

2127.

 

Bogeyi

 

I hope you guys manage to get some sleep today, the pair of you must feel like crap today :(( Sounds like you both need a good cry about now. Can they knock Ryan out for the night so you both get some sleep?

janetmk1 (39 )    1:56 pm, 8 Aug


 

2128.

 

paulaxx

 

you are so right, if thats one thing cancer does it sorts out your true freinds, and i feel like that now too i always use to worry about what other people thought, now i dont give a toss its there loss not yours. our real friends have put there lives on hold and made the trip from oz to support us through the hard times. thank god for real friends.:)

kiwikaz3 (10 )    1:57 pm, 8 Aug


 

2129.

 

Sonia

 

Just let her stew in her own self pity. Its not your problem, sounds like she just needs to "wake up and smell the roses" As long as you guys go out and have a good time thats what matters :))

janetmk1 (39 )    2:01 pm, 8 Aug


 

2130.

 

hello

 

Joystik I think it was you asking about how long.....its still going to get worse before its gets better, Ryans ulcers wont start healing until he starts to get neutrafils so the body can heal. He has slept today but I havent feel ok. Randal loved his clothes and cake, thought he will look trendy again. Ryan cant be knocked out because hes on just a huge amount of meds, he needs to pee during the night and be monitored. He is looking so green today

bogeyi (484 )    2:43 pm, 8 Aug


 

2131.

 

Bogeyi

 

No words right now just sending you hugs and love xoxoxoxoxo

paulaxx (78 )    2:48 pm, 8 Aug


 

2132.

 

Hi bogeyi

 

I can remember 7 years ago being in hospital with Ryan and no one knowing if he would recover and if he did what sort of recovery he would have etc. I remember very clearly during this time just wishing he could be like other kids and do the naughty boy stuff. Well he had 5 years recovering and related to that he was sick for a year with another illnes and this year is his first healthy year since he turned 5. I now have my wish and then some ..hes the worst nightmare of a 13 year old you could imagine and the school has just rung to say he has another detention after school ...(lost count of the total this year)

janetmk1 (39 )    2:54 pm, 8 Aug


 

2133.

 

for stapling another kid with a staple gun...

 

he and the boy would have been fooling around with the gun as they have been gien detention for it before. He has been at school half the time the others have been there this year and is such a handful. BUT I love every minute of it and wouldn't change it for the world. One day you too will get to see your son change into this ratbag of a 13 year old and I am guessing will enjoy seeing him be naughty too. Hang in there bogeyi, we are all thinking of you!!

janetmk1 (39 )    2:58 pm, 8 Aug


 

2134.

 

Thanks everyone :o)

 

I agree with you all totally... done! Ok so back from dentist, two fillings (one was a re-do) not too bad actually, rest is demineralisation, which I can reverse - got the touth guard in now actually soaking them in the tooth paste - noone come to the door now ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    3:29 pm, 8 Aug


 

2135.

 

Oh Bogeyi

 

Poor Ryan, I can feel a respite coming, I really do. Hope its soon! ((((((hugs))))) to you and your brave fighter xoxoxoxo

soniat-d (153 )    3:31 pm, 8 Aug


 

2136.

 

LOL Paula

 

Man, we are so similar LOL! I used to worry about hurting others too (or trying hard to please), not any more (well not nearly as much anyway ;o) The email I sent to her this morning I would never have sent a year ago LOL. Its done. How is Joshi now? I've been thinking of him too today. xoxoxo

soniat-d (153 )    3:35 pm, 8 Aug


 

2137.

 

Thats right scottygirl

 

Hope for the best (but prepare for possibly worse), best you can do. Many non-aggressive cancers out there. Met one this morning, big lump cut out, 3 nodes affected, not returned :o) She's vit c ing to be safe ;o)

soniat-d (153 )    3:38 pm, 8 Aug


 

2138.

 

Hi Kiwikaz3 ;o)

 

Glad you and your family had a good night - I totally agree, a good nights sleep is devine :o) Hey a lady beside me this morning - her brother had a brain tumor when he was 44 and was given 4-6 months, and he survived 12 years, healing beautifully. Apparently his saving was alternative medicine. I've always been wary of all that, but these days I ask what he used (for my friend and your husband) She's going to tell me next time. Probably something you've already heard about, but... are you interested?

soniat-d (153 )    3:44 pm, 8 Aug


 

2139.

 

Any news Joystik?

 

How are you today Landylass? Waves to JanetMK. Sorry all, gotta go, busy busy (((((hugs to you all)))))

soniat-d (153 )    3:45 pm, 8 Aug


 

2140.

 

Many kind wishes to you all

 

Sonia you have such a talented writing style I guess you are too busy to think about publishing some of this, I find myself going home and thinking about what you've wrote, and I feel like I'm intruding - like reading someone elses letters, you are all amazing ladies, Amazons even, if thats not too cheeky of me - it was certainly meant as a compliment, dont worry about your friend, even tho' you will - its not about sweatin the small stuff. Sleep well all 2nite, my very best wishes.

solarouge (48 )    3:47 pm, 8 Aug


 

2141.

 

thanks for the wishes guys

 

The one thing I feel sad about is Ryan has lost control of his life while being sick, He cant choose when to sleep,when to go to the toilet,when to go to a park, when to go to a freinds place,play sport,eat certain foods the list could go on for ages and ages. The one thing he can control is what he watches and plays....he loves family guy while some people think its not appropiate for kids the laughter that comes from his belly is music to my ears, like the shooting xbox games while I think should he be playing it???I also think what else does he have to do that makes him happy. His make a wish with surround sound tv and xbox was awesome this is in his room and he controls it no one tells him to stop playing or turn it down. I cant wait for the day when he can say Mum im going over to my frends place, where i dont have to leave an emergency contact in case of bleeding or worry about colds....where he can be normal..

bogeyi (484 )    4:16 pm, 8 Aug


 

2142.

 

Bogeyi

 

I know that feeling only too well, wish I didn't but I do and I bet you do too Paula. That really is the hardest part that they can't do the normal boy stuff, the best part of their lives gets taken from them. But believe me when they get well enough they more than make up for it, but its soooo nice to see. On the rare occasion Ryan did go out to play with a friend I usually ended up having to go and get him early for one reason or another, so this is the first year hes really socialised with other kids and has done the "normal" kid stuff. It is heart wrenching though and a constant worry. I know what you mean about the xbox, Ryan played the playstation endlessly but thats all he had to enjoy. You are doing a great job Bogeyi!!!!

janetmk1 (39 )    4:54 pm, 8 Aug


 

2143.

 

Happy birthday to the two birthday boys!

 

Oh Bogey you are going thru the mill at the moment. Hang in there, you are a fantastic mum going thru all this with him. Its heartbreaking not being able to wave the magic wand when you child is in pain!

landylass (48 )    4:56 pm, 8 Aug


 

2144.

 

I was knackered after my day

 

in Dunedin yesterday. Poured all day and now doing same here today! Been to dietician this morning and have to have another blood test, only problem is I am bruised where they did one yesterday and can't have one in other arm. So got to go to Chemo Ward on Thurs and get them to do it thru my port. Got home and realised hubby going out of town on Thurs and I was going to go with him! Never mind, health comes first.

landylass (48 )    4:58 pm, 8 Aug


 

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Sanp Maewest on the shawl!!!

 

Really got the knitting bug and bought a book of shawl patterns this morning. Nobody expecting a baby but will probably take me months making one. Great photo of your boys. You must be really proud of them. Congrats on becoming a granny in waiting! Kiwikaz hope the bugs leave you all soon. Don't want the whole house down with them. Hope the birthday girl to be is well over it by her birthday.

landylass (48 )    5:00 pm, 8 Aug


 

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hi bogey

 

life is just so bloody unfair at times that kid does not deserve what he is going through. I couldn't find his new photos just the ones I saw with Tyler the other day. I am just lost for words . Sending all my love to ryanxxxxxxxx

boop2 (109 )    5:09 pm, 8 Aug


 

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Hi maewest

 

why aren't I surprised at you having such lovely boys I knew you would. Aren't you just so proud of them my eldest grandson is at uni and he is just so nice. I know how you felt yesterday I will never come to turns with that if I live to be 100.I shifted the barbecue I could not get over that and he informed me he lived here as well, I replied keep this up and you won't. I still have two roses to plant. I am really enjoying the garden. You have a nice day here and be good maewest cause sometimes I think you are a lot like me.

boop2 (109 )    5:15 pm, 8 Aug


 

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sonia your sword is slipping a wee bit

 

up and at them. Good luck for Friday it is too long to wait.I can imagine how you feel though. That friend of yours is pathetic if you don't mind me saying if that is all she has to worry about as you said build a bridge.Happy birthday to Brent. How is wee em haven't heard much of her lately?

boop2 (109 )    5:22 pm, 8 Aug


 

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be back after tea

 

Hi landylass hope you come right I think your sense of humour will get you through. Hugs Boop

boop2 (109 )    5:24 pm, 8 Aug


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boop there on photobucket

 

do you have the address if not send me an email and i can invite you.

bogeyi (484 )    5:30 pm, 8 Aug


 

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Hi there everyone

 

Sword slips occassionally at times like this boop, but its fine, back up now ;o) To avoid any misconceptions out there, the lumps are DEFINATELY bigger, no playing with my mind etc. Just gotta hope they're the same ones, not new ones I guess. I'm really going to push brachytherapy now - stuff this poncying around, nuke those b@st@rds!

soniat-d (153 )    5:45 pm, 8 Aug


 

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Well back from back specialist

 

Back is in great shape, holding together well, he was most pleased :o) Gotta be out of the door in 45 so gotta go now make myself look good ;o) Almost lost the numb lips now thank goodness, 2 lots of two lots of needles today (Vit c and fillings) - yay lucky me! :o/!!!

soniat-d (153 )    5:47 pm, 8 Aug


 

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Hi everyone, this is another quick post from me...

 

sorry again!! Well I went to town and was Interviewed by another person from the same company, and then by the Principal again. At this stage it looks like I have got the job, but they are going to finalise the details of teritory's etc with the other salesperson in the area, BEFORE they let me know for sure. That will probably be in 2 days. It seems to be very long and drawn out to me as well, but they want to make sure its going to work for everyone before they ok it. They are not really keen on 2 salepeople overlapping areas, because of possible fall out!! So I guess you could say they are crossing ALL the T's and dotting ALL the I's before they finally say YES. So thats all I can report.....sorry!!

joystik (285 )    5:49 pm, 8 Aug


 

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Have a good night Sonia....been thinking bout you

 

today too. Hope you're feeling better. Your friend sure takes the cake!! She wants to try a mile in some of our shoes, yours especially!! I've got visitors at 7pm so I better get off here and get dinner over with and cleaned up before they arrive. Hope the birthday has been special for Brent and for Randal too. Hi Bogeyi and Ryan....love to you all....

joystik (285 )    5:52 pm, 8 Aug


 

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sonia

 

yes we are always interested in hearing anymore on beating the monster you have nothing to lose and everything to gain. hubbys tumor is a oliodendoglioma in case they ask as there is so many of them they have debulked the tumor twice but part still remains, ok thanks for that. :) i am off to get computer lessons from mr 13!! they know so much more than me its not fair.!!!!!

kiwikaz3 (10 )    7:27 pm, 8 Aug


 

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Hi...

 

Sonia, Have a wonderful night tonight. Thinking of you all the time. Josh is okish, thanks your a sweetheart. Just gave him some codeine for pain, it hurts to lie on the bed, his bones ache, his skin is sensitive you know how it goes.He has another rash all over him too, in the bath tonight he called out to me, it was a worried cry, he found some red spots and thought he had chicken pox, he was freaking out.I guess I may be to blame, making such a big deal about the whole thing. Well actually so did the drs etc so I wont take all the blame and I do know how serious it is. So he must have picked up on all that. Anyway these spots are small and red, no blisters yet so dont think its that. We have bloods tomorrow so will show the nurse. Hope you really enjoy your night hugs to you xoxo

paulaxx (78 )    7:50 pm, 8 Aug


 

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Bogeyi & Janet

 

I so get what you said before, I would dearly love to give Josh the life he deserves. Just to see him playing and laughing is such a bonus. Tonight he was playing with Cass and he just cant do it for long. He said Cass when I say Im tired I just cant do it, she is so strong willed she wont take no for an answer, she still finds it hard to understand and because I have to step in its like Im making Josh more important all the time by saying Cass Josh has to rest let him. Then I try to make it up to her but shes only 5 and the more I give the more she wants and I am so tired. This is hard. But so hard for you at the moment Bogeyi :( Ahh thats my vent over, thanks for hearing me out and knowing how I feel. xo

paulaxx (78 )    7:57 pm, 8 Aug


 

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Joystik

 

Have a fab dinner tonight. Love to you all xoxoxoxoxo

paulaxx (78 )    7:57 pm, 8 Aug


 

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Awww Paula

 

I know your tired but you have the strength to get through it. The kids do get very jealous, they see their sibbling suffer and in pain, then turn around and make you feel like your neglecting them. I always got "Ryans your favourite" yet I would tear myself in half trying to give them all what they needed. In the end I had to sit them down and tell them straight coz I couldn't be wonderwoman like they seem to expect. In the end I used to take one out for lunch on their own to give them some quality time doing something they would like.

janetmk1 (39 )    8:23 pm, 8 Aug


 

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paula.

 

hugs for you tonite. it hard thats what sometimes its so hard to stay strong and sometimes it does the kids good to see you cry and let them know you are human too. people use to say to me re hubby why let him do .....?? but i would say so much has been taken away from him i am not takin that away from him too. even when his head was all over the place, and it didnt make sense to the rest of us it made sense to him. janetmk1 i found making one on one for the kids was a good thing. something special that they wanted, to let them know i was still thinking about them too. yep its hard having your family all ripped up. cancer does sux.

kiwikaz3 (10 )    8:35 pm, 8 Aug


 

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paula tell josh we are sending gentle hugs

 

well im stumped Ryan had a shower about 5.30 and has been sitting up in bed ever since, no nausea????im sure it wont last long but the last couple of hours have been good I dont feel so helpless would be nice if he stayed like this......we will see

bogeyi (484 )    8:41 pm, 8 Aug


 

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Bogeyi

 

I hope it lasts long enough for you guys to get a good sleep, you guys both need a break.Is counterstrike his favourite game? My son loves it and plays it online on the computer against other clans. I think your little lad would really enjoy it.

janetmk1 (39 )    9:16 pm, 8 Aug


 

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Another busy day on here

 

it takes so long to catch up when you have missed a few hours. Bogey that's good news that Ryan is sitting up in bed. Long may it continue for you (and him too). Hope you both manage to get some sleep tonight.Hi Joystik, Hope you are having a lovely evening with your visitors. You would think the real estate co would have had the area thing sorted before they saw you today. Waiting, waiting....! I think it sounds like it will be all go for you. Paula...poor Josh It's just not fair on all of you. You are doing an amazing job just holding everything together. I think you and Bogey are just a couple of amazing people. I think of you all heaps XXXXXX

maewest (79 )    10:01 pm, 8 Aug


 

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Kwikaz it must be

 

so hard on your family too. I can only admire you from a distance. I guess we all find an inner strength when the need arises, but it does take it's toll. I hope you manage to take some time out just for you. XXX

maewest (79 )    10:04 pm, 8 Aug


 

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